I'm Worried

I'd probably still ask the head doc if he would mind sitting down with me for a few minutes to discuss how he thinks it's going. The fact that you're almost at 3 months is a good reason.

angelfire, congratulations on your NP job!!!

i bet you are doing just great, and that they are thankful to have you! i'm like you; i assume i'm probably messing things up if i don't get any feedback. i do best with regular assessments of my performance, so i know where i stand...if not, i think they're going to fire me any second. um, can we say paranoid?

ooohh the socratic method makes me nervous, too. i have been known to give some really ridiculous answers because of nerves.

i definitely think a one-on-one meeting would help you worry less! maybe it could happen this friday! that way you can send away those thoughts before the weekend...

are y'all doing GXTs, stress echoes, and treadmill/adenosine/dobutamine mibi's?
so, do you mean the doc doesn't want you to be the only one supervising the patient on the treadmill (yet)? is that how it will eventually work? you will go in the stress room with the patient and the tech?
are they learnin' you about helping to interpret the echo & nuclear pix? i guess the doc would have to sign off on those...right?

i hope what the office manager said put your mind at ease a bit.
i'm betting that they like you (they really do)!!!

Are you giving off vibes that you're not confident in your skills? If so, be aware and try and stop it. Learn your stuff.

And I mean LEARN it like THEM.

Respect will come when trust is established.

Hi Angelfire,
I totally agree with Sherry:
" How about asking for a 1:1 to discuss your progress and what they want from you and what you want from the job, that way you can set objectives and maybe come up with a plan that will suit your needs and the needs of the practice. You may well find they are just letting you settle in slowly and not wanting to push you too hard to quickly ".
Go directly to the source. You mentioned this particular MD was heard saying that you were not ready to perform a stress test by yourself...well, I'd say go for it!! Ask if he would let you be present when he perform one. That way he will see that you are willing to learn and grow, and it will allow you to become more comfortable with this particular MD.

Anglefire it sounds like you have a very supportive practice and doctors to work with, I've been a NP for over 5 years now and I still get times when I just need a little confirmation that I'm doing OK from my supervising doctor so it sounds like perfectly normal anxiety. I am always surprised when I get my appraisal because I get such positive feedback and I always expect something different. The poster who said we are much harder on ourselves than others are.

Your going to do just fine, take the time they are giving you to settle in, I think 6 months sounds about right to do just that.

You took a beating the last job. Cut yourself some slack and relax. BELIEVE me, I worked 6 years on a cardiac unit. Those doctors have NO PROBLEM communicating their displeasure. If you were messing up, you would know it without a doubt.

At least he finds you as a confidant about OTHERS and not you, whew!

otessa