Quote from TheMoonisMyLantern
The life of an insomniac night shift nurse is one that is truly misunderstood
. Tomorrow for example, I have to attend a work related class that starts at 7:30am which means I have to "get up" by 5am due to the commute. Sadly, after a few hours of attempting to sleep it's 0107 and I can tell already that tomorrow will be a day filled with me consuming enough caffeine to turn my heart into a drummer for a heavy metal band
and that by tomorrow evening when I make the hour long trek back home my driving will be comparable to that of a 94 y/o with Parkinson's and dementia.
Despite all this, want to know what makes me irritated? My partner is sleeping without difficulty, snoring ever so so
ftly enough that you just know he's have wonderful dreams about grassy fields and Unicorns with pretty white wings. (the Pegasus has wings)
Oh yes it's very petty of me, indeed my irritation boils down to one simple thing: Jealousy... because my partner can get 8-9 hours of sleep no matter what's happening in the world
or his life without pharmaceutical intervention each and every night, and myself? Nah, I get the luxury of unintentionally frightening young children because I look like a Zombie thanks to the effects of my sleep deprivation.
But honestly whether you're a night shifter or prone to insomnia or both, we always get phone calls right when we finally DO fall asleep and it's always from someone who knows us well enough to know what our sleep schedule is like, or our partners/wives/husbands etc. never have difficulty "accidently" waking us up right as we doze off, but God forbid we accidently wake THEM up or we get snarled at.
What is the point of this thread? Good question, and honestly I don't quite know myself haha, just thought I would share my thoughts as I'm sure many of you can relate. Time for one more cup of herbal tea then attempt one more time to get at least a couple hours of sleep. Although the selfish, petty, cynical side of me wants to run through the house screaming and laughing obnoxiously as loud as I can, and when my partner crankily demands me to explain my behavior, simply say, "If I can't sleep NOBODY CAN!!"
What a delightful read!!!!! You my friend have a gift!!!!! People who don't work nights cannot possibly fathom the toll it take on ones body and psyche. On more than one occasion when my husband is feeling neglected....
he will rampage on about how I am always tired and all I do is sleep. (when I worked that is, Iam disabled at present). What he has failed to mention or remembered is that I worked very weekend 12 hour shifts friday, saturday and sunday and
that I would pick up at least one twelve or 2 eights during the week. I had 2 children 11 months apart (I told you I don't sleep
) and when they were small I would do anything to get a nap. I have set them in the tub lined with an egg crate and water shut off and allowed them to finger paint each orther and the walls while I slept in front of the tub for 20 winks or less..
When they got older I thought I was saved and then I realized that teenagers alone were more dangerous than toddlers that I resigned to be a creature of the night the:smackingf rest of my life.
I loved the phone calls fom staffing....I thought i'd let you sleep before I caled or "Did I wake you? Excuse Me??........IF YOU GO TO BED AT 9PM......ARE YOU STILL ASLEEP AT 1 AM????????? YES!!!! YOU WOKE ME!!!!!!!!
I always tried to explain to my husband that no one is mowing the lawn at 2 AM or snow blowing at 3. NO
one is swimming or grilling at 1 AM or running the chain saw and building the deck at midnight!!! I can't do the coffee clutch with the "girls from the PTA" (not that I would anyway
) and I run late fo the classroom parties because I overslept!!! He can't sleep if the crickets are too loud or the moon is too bright in the room. The white noise I use to save me during the day is forbidden at night
. I do love him so but there are times..........
I do not answer my phone during the day my ringer is OFF. I had 2 cell phones one for family and one soley for the school if the kids needed me. Everybody else could just forget about getting me the phone was OFF. I made it clear to work (when I got hired) If they needed me between 9-2 they had to send the police!(I was a sup at that time) and they did NOT have my cell!!! I flat out told them no! If they needed me that bad ......they had to call my husband and go thru him to get me.
On my days off of course I can't sleep.....I wander around and try to read. I mop my floors and watch TV. I've been known to wash clothes and clean the fridge. I too grocery shop when I can't sleep. I reorganize closets (quietly) or I'll take a drive and run the dog at the beach. I have found keeping th same schedule on my days off has saved me as I don't flip well at all!!!!!. So I have fallen asleep at a baseball game or waiting for my kids at the roller coaster at Six flags....Oh well......Cie La vie!
So THANK YOU! My friend and fellow night walker!!!! You made my day!