I am a new grad working in OB. I have been precepted for 7 weeks now. During the past week, I have made several errors. I gave a rhogam without charting it on the mar, I did a PKU without filling out the form first, and then ended up putting the blood on the wrong part of the form, and then gave the wrong medication to a pt. I graduated as an honor student, but now that I'm working, i am so nervous all the time, and I feel like a complete idiot. My precepted experience has been rocky, I've been with several different preceptors, I was sent home for low census at least a couple times (this is a very rural hospital), plus we had several days where I was thrown in to work postpartum on my own because we got slammed with labors. In addition, i was expected to train to labor and to postpartum at the same time which I finally objected to a couple weeks ago, because I felt overwhelmed. My preceptor who I was with during these occurences is very distracted because she is going through some severe personal problems at home, and was only precepting me because there were two nursing students on the unit, and my regular preceptor was home sick. We were not working "closely" at all, I was pretty much doing all the work myself, with her just backing me up from the nurse's station when I had questions. I should have had her check over me more.
I am very worried that I am going to lose my dream job. I love perinatal nursing more than anything, and it was a miracle that I got this job in the first place.
I'm off today, and my boss would only talk to me for about three minutes this morning on the phone about this. She put me off until wednesday to resume talking. She was understandably angry this morning when we spoke.
Can anyone please reply and tell me any words of wisdom at all? I know I'm new and all, but I feel like I'm just an awful nurse, even though I care a lot, and get along well with patients and other staff.
