Ok , this came out of left field... at least to ME!
I was fired today. Whoa, the reality is setting in now... or is that the wine I'm drinking? UGH.
Got called into a meeting w/the supervisor and HR (or, as I like to refer to them, INhumane resources).
Suddenly - thrust into my lap, are allegations of patient safety issues, complaints made by my coworkers (of a different shift).
Ok.. you're wondering.. "then why are you so shocked?"
Here's the kicker...
THEY ARE ALL, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM, LIES LIES LIES!!!!
I normally would question a post where someone stated all complaints against them were lies.. heck, I questioned my own SELF... Did I really do that? Could I have forgotten NOT taking care of a pressure 210/100? Did I NOT give an anti-inflammatory to a pt w/COPD??? Did I sign off meds that I hadn't actually GIVEN??? NEVER.. I addressed each and every one of those issues.. AND documented in notes. *****!!!
Holy crap... I've heard of being bamboozled - but never thought this would exist in a supposed caring profession.
Never thought *I* would be on the receiving end of these falsehoods!!!
And yet, here I sit - without a job - a worse yet, without hope for this profession. WHY are some people so back-biting and just plain EVIL?
And.. WHY .. WHY is their word TAKEN for truth, without being thoroughly investigated? This isn't right, it shouldn't be allowed to happen.. yet it does.
I'm happy for the time off, believe me.. I could use a break. But, damn, the humiliation - the second guessing myself - seeing those s.o.b's act as though they're so righteous, and faultless.. when.. damn, where the HELL is their conscience?
Ok.. so now I feel like a failure - like I've actually been a horrible nurse - but why can't I make myself believe that? WHY do I still find my actions correct in proper and DAMNIT GOOD care of my patients!????
Ugh.. maybe it IS the wine..