Laura, any GOOD nurse feels inadequate and scared as she gets closer to graduation. The realization that the amount of knowledge and clincal finesse that you need seems to only grow bigger is VERY normal. If you were feeling like you knew it all, were SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ready to graduate, could take on anything, etc., that's when we'd get worried. Everyone is scared. Some put on a better poker face than others, but everyone, I promise you, is scared. It IS an awesome responsibility...but it's good that you realize that. Having respect for the license and the job is something that will actually work in your favor. Think about what you know...really KNOW...think about what you do well. Can you take vital signs? Do you have a good grasp of anatomy and pathophys? Do you listen well? I bet you have a much firmer grasp on everything than you give yourself credit for.
You'll really be okay. Don't sell yourself short, Laura! Think of how you felt as a little kid about to jump off the high dive for the first time...terrified, wondering how in the world your legs ever carried you to the top of that ladder in the first place, and how you were ever going to be able to MOVE YOUR LEGS to jump!! But then somehow, you jumped...and your heart leapt into your throat, and you screamed with terror and delight all at the same time. And when you hit the water, you were so excited that you could hardly wait to climb that ladder again and start all over. Nursing is just like that. It's terrifying, exhilirating, and wonderful all at the same time. Just close your eyes and jump...I bet you'll enjoy the ride!
[This message has been edited by kday (edited March 19, 2001).]