I need some serious help here. I've just had a week off work and have done some serious thinking about my stress levels, how nursing is now affecting my relationship and home life. I dread going back on Monday because every night I'm coming home angry, and taking it out on everyone because there/s no help for me at work, no support or recognition for struggling to run a theatre which I've had no training for.
Right now I'm working in the OR, have done so for the last two years. While I can say that I'm competent at my job, at the moment when the CN who runs two general surgery theatres is away, I'm being put in charge. I'm finding that I'm struggling a lot at work in this position, the CN has had 30 years experience, i've only had 2. I've been given no instructions on how to do the CN's duties because we're constantly short staffed, and the other experienced RN's I work with are only too happy for me to run around and sort out every little problem. To be honest one of them has been nursing for about 20 years as an RN, has NO initiative whatsoever and I always have to remind her to do things. And she gets paid more than me!
I am quite concerned about going to managment or the CNC with my concerns. Because the manager is quite frankly an idiot, can't get a roster out on time, was supposed to provide newbies with preceptors a year ago which is still not done.
The CNC well she has been known to SCREAM at nurses, no joke. I haven't seen her do it but too many people have said that they've heard her do it. She gets away with it because the manager is frightened of her and she's pretty powerful with admin. I have noted that she never recognises the good work we do all she ever does is criticise people. I'm concerned that by going to her she'll start on about all the things I do wrong. I know i'll probably cry because I am a bit sensitive at the moment and I try so hard to make things work for everyone.
I'm really at my wits end here. I am unhappy with the way things are right now, feel that there is no support or recognition to any of us. I dont' even know if I want to nurse anymore it's way too stressful and life is too short to go through this. I'm seriously considering doing something a bit different such as community nursing for a change.
Any advice on how to deal with this would be appreciated .