I have had 1 month off since my mother died. Financially I need to think of returning. I tried a couple of shifts back and I felt incapable as it was, then an older man died. My mind went blank and I just couldn't think of what to do. When I'm at home my focus is on my mom and wishing that I could just go for a holiday or do something fun. I really couldn't care less about work right now but know I need to. I know grieving will take a while. I feel empty. I am somewhat frightened that my brain will not pull through for me if I really need it to. I'm tired of people saying you need to just go back to work, you'll feel better. These people aren't RN's and fail to understand the need for a focused mind on the job. Is there anybody out there who can relate and share some insight on how I should proceed. Thanks alot.