After having my son, he was a premie and I was single, scared and didn't think I could even hold this teeny weeny 4 lb bundle of JOY? It was the dedicated Nurse who sat at my bedside with the patience of an angel while I came to the realization that what she was holding was really mine. She was supportive, understanding, didn't push and never judged me. She had such compassion and truly loved her job. I thought my GOD, I want to make someone feel that way. So off to nursing school I went. Many times I thought 'What the heck am I doing" but after my first rotation and got past the initial hesitation of "caring" for another individual it was magic. I went into LTC and have to admit, it's tough. Dealing with my first death, post mortem care Ugh. I kept waiting for this dead person to open their eye's and say something. LTC is really helping people accept the unacceptable, DEATH. You deal with family guilt, hope, fear, frustration and a lot of anger. But if your heart is in it, you realize that what you are doing is more than a job. It's paving the way to closure for everyone. I have grown as a person in so many ways working with the elderly. They are fabulous, their quirky personalities, their defiance, their pride. I once had my son tell me I spent more time with my patients than I did with him, OUCH so I took him to the hospital, I told him he didn't need to be jealous or angry but until he actually met these folks it was tough. Once he got past the fear of an "old person" (he was 5) he had a blast. And my resident's? It was incredible to see their faces light up, telling stories you can only get in history books. I realized, that our elderly population are so vital and so many are put in a home and forgotten, what a waste. Body fluids are the least of your problems, attachment is the killer. Each one that passes takes a piece of me with them, but I'll be the first one their to hold their hands and tell them its okay to let go. Picking your field of practice is crucial to your career longevity. I admire all nurses in all area's of nursing, but if you really want to make a difference, Long Term Care is the place for you.