Okay...lets take a step back and think really hard about your goals and future. Take a good look at yourself and try to figure things out focusing on the future and being a nurse. This should help you to make a choice...then it will take some figuring out and comprimise to achieve it...but keep your main goal at the top and work towards it!
For me it was RN school and future RN positions. Okay...even as an RN now, I had to make choices about my future and had to give some things up to achive it! Example: I basically hit the glass ceiling at my ALF/LTC employer after 4 years, and things started to get pretty bad with new management that treated the facility like a business only and not an individual oriented health facility. Moral went down severely, and I was one of the more down to earth funny nurses that kept moral up regardless.
Now, I had to make a choice...go onto something where I could advance, or stay there because I felt that if I left moral and health would go down severely for staff and patients!!!! Hard choice...but I had to move on...I couldn't take all this on my shoulders and still be a good nurse. It hurt, leaving the residents and staff I had grown to love...but they were understanding and proud of me, and that helped. I left, went agency which was scary...and got a new job which I love...best thing..I still see my residents in the hospital where they need a friendly face they know the most! Worked out..but heck, I didn't know it would at the time!!!!
Think hard about your goals and future, try to keep yourself open to choices at this point since the future seems to switch gears on ya..LOL, and be willing to make changes to a point to accomidate bringing yourself to the level you wish your career to move to!
Good luck to you...you may just want to write down both options on the top of a page, and list the positives below it and weight it...then do the same with the negatives..that tends to help organize all those feelings instead of having them spiral in your head like a grey cloud...helps me!