ok, I will do you one.
I am an executor of my Fathers Living will. This document clearly states he never wishes to have a tube placed in his body for the purpose of feeding or hydration. He never wants CPR or Ventilation done on him.
This documnet is 8 years old.
1 year ago he developed ALS.
My mother is the primary executor, I am the secondary. She is normally the one who helps people deal with their own deaths when their families abandon them, or just cannot deal. She is a ROCK! (as long as she has my father to be there for her) but this time it is HIM
I have asked my father if any of his wishes have changed, and he has told me (with some anger
) that NOTHING in his advanced directive has been or will change.
I am not looking to see it changed, i just want to know. I am scared, and I want to do what is right for him, and I will even go against my own beliefs to give him what he says he wants.
but I am scared.
and when faced with his anger, and my mothers anxiety, I am even more scared.
as nuses, what would you do?
Now, as ME what would you do?
[ May 15, 2001: Message edited by: ecb ]