Ok, so this is a vent. I apologize for the length of this post. Please note that this is not meant to be a general statement of my opinion on a whole group of people. Don't flame me. I'm mad and tired and dont have anyone else to tell.Dear preceptor.. I came to you smiling, full of energy and ready to tackle the last leg of my orientation journey, with your guidance of course. I haven't really gotten any inclination on where that guidance is at. You tell me what patients to take, and I take them. Then when I am at the bedside, communicating with the family (you know that rapport thing?), you decide that it is a great time to tell me *not to touch the patient*, or the machines for that matter unless you are there. What? I did not fall off of the nursing school wagon yesterday. I am new to your facility, but not a new grad. I did get a smug sense of satisfaction when the family told you it was fine and I was handling things.
I see that you do not have any intention of assessing my skill level or evaluating areas in which I need assistance. In your eyes, I have no skill level or even brain stem function because every action on my part is met by you with some sort of resistance or interrogation. You cant wait for me to come out of the bathroom before you call the doc... making me look like some sort of fool that cant call the doctor. Lo and behold the toilet flushes and I am greeted with 75 orders, all of which you *write* but make me *do*. Although I am a critical care nurse, and am comfortable with bedside procedures, it is *imperative * on your part to ensure that I am educated on sterile fields and how to open packages. That makes me feel so great, especially with the doc at the bedside.
Precepting with you has given me a great opportunity to practice dealing with "the cold shoulder, being aloof and unapproachable." I *know* that you aren't any of those things, just preparing me for when I run into someone who is. Thanks! I am now well versed in forced conversation, fake enthusiasm, and being lonely but not alone.
I have been practicing my mental, telepathic and psychic abilities... seeing as how there isn't any verbal interaction between us, its time to take it up a notch. *places fingertips to temples* Can you hear me now?
Here is an interesting thought. You breeze in, tell me how the lights have to be like this, and these lines need to be like this and so on. I am respectful of those requests. I like things a certain way too.. try to be mindful of that. The road goes both ways here. The same goes for documentation. Maybe you could ask me why I wrote a certain thing before you scratch it out and write error... although all the extra embellishments make my flow sheet look freakin fantastic, right?
When I ask you about something, especially when its a policy and the rationale for not following it... I just love when you get mean and flash those *knowing* looks to all your friends at the desk.
Precepting with you has been quite the experience, and as life goes, all things must come to an end. Now that our journey is finished, know that I will *never* forget you.
Love, your precepteeLast edit by Joe V on Apr 12, '12
Ivanna_Nurse has '8' year(s) of experience and specializes in 'CCU MICU Rapid Response'. From 'Where the sand and the sky meet'; Joined Jul '05; Posts: 477; Likes: 547.17Nov 16, '09 by tolerantgirlBless your heart. I have been in your shoes. I have been on my own since April and my preceptor was less than ideal, I expected more instruction, less negativity. For what it is worth, the experience has made me a better nurse and I grow stronger as a nurse every day. Hugs to you. And may you never forget this experience, because one day you will be a preceptor and you will do outstanding because you know what not to do now.6Nov 16, '09 by AymeseSo disheartening to frequently hear on this site how many nurses struggle with such pathetic, controlling...broads, such as this preceptor, in our profession. They truly sully the comraderie that should exist between nurses. I have been fortunate not to have worked with people like this.4Nov 16, '09 by tookalongtimeI am so sorry you have not had an ideal experience with your preceptor. I have been so lucky with my preceptor. She had been an RN for over 30 years and has been one of the nicest and most helpful preceptors that you could ever want. She even apologized to me today, because she thought she did not teach me anything today. I had 2 discharges and one admit at the same time while trying to give report at shift change. She took the admit and even did the ECF paperwork for the discharges. There are great preceptors out there and I was lucky enough to have one of them. I don't know what I would have done if I had someone like you did. Hang in there. Hopefully your preceptor will not get the chance to beat down anyone else.