Yesterday afternoon, I heard a bang outside my window and soon hubby came into the house to let me know that there had been a head-on collision outside of our house. I went outside immediately to offer assistance. When I arrived on scene, I saw a badly crushed small SUV on the side of the road with a young woman lying beside the vehicle. I didn't realize it at the time, but she was a passenger... her mother (driver) was killed on impact and trapped in the vehicle.
My neighbor was already out there and on the phone with the 911 dispatch. There was also a young boy in the car, but other drivers that had stopped when they saw the accident had him out pretty quick...he was not badly injured as he had been strapped in his carseat in the rear seat. I went to the young woman on the ground, assuming she had been ejected from the vehicle. She was face down on the ground, not moving. I shook her and tried to rouse her...I saw her back move slightly twice...about 30 seconds apart...as though she was trying to breathe, but when I checked her pulse, there was nothing and she didn't move at all after that.
The neighbor handed me the phone and I spoke with the dispatch who asked me if I could do CPR. The girl was on her belly and when I tried to find her face, all I could see was blood and dirt. At that time, our local dentist came on scene and also checked the girl's pulse and couldn't find anything. I asked him if we should do CPR and he said he didn't think it would help...she looked beyond saving to him.
Today I feel awful...I feel like I should have tried to do CPR anyways. This girl was a young teenager and a member of our church and high school. I just didn't see how I could roll her over without making her injuries worse...I suspect she had a broken neck and/or severe internal injuries. The vehicle that hit them was a large pickup and the combined impact was at least 120 mph. It didn't help either with my neighbor hovering over me saying "You're a nurse right?" (I'm an LPN). I have just been second guessing myself all day and didn't sleep last night...kept having flashbacks every time I closed my eyes.
Thanks for letting me vent.