I can not forget one staff nurse, whom I think of as a terror one, but created the most impact in my life and practice as a nurse... I really don't like this certain staff nurse, who is at her mid 40's perhaps. She really looks stern and she always speaks with authority and as if every student around her is committing a mistake. In fact, almost all students from different schools who happen to work with her dislikes her. One day a drunk pregnant woman, at around 7 mos of pregnancy was admitted to the labor room. The entire labor room smelled like beer. Upon interview, we learned that she used to consume the minimum of 5 liters of beer each day during the entire course of her pregnancy. She is a g5p4 patient. She has been married for 7 years to a drunkard who was never able to provide for her needs and that of her children. Because of her problems, she left her husband, and live in the sidewalk together with her 2 children, ages 4 and 2. When she had labor pains in the sidewalk, some bypassers happen to notice her and brought her to a government hospital. While at the labor room, the nurses on duty did not give her an encouraging word. Rather they are close to cursing her because of her practice. While on the delivery table, the nurses shout at her because she can't push enough due to drinking. When the baby was delivered, it did not cry and the color is already dusky. The nurses were alarmed, so they informed the nicu nurse on duty about the case. Immediately, the stern dr nurse brought the neonate to the newborn area which is around 7 meters away. Along the way, she tried to stimulate the neonate for her to give a cry. After delivering the placenta, the stern dr nurse, went back to the newborn area to check the status of the neonate. Upon seeing the nicu nurse trying to resuscitate the baby, she went back to the mother who is still at the delivery table. She updated the mother of her baby's condition, this time she did it without condemnation but rather with sympathy. Calmly, she explained to the mother what happened. Upon hearing it, the mother shed tears and ask permission for her to see her baby. Without noticing it, a tear fell from the corner of the staff nurse's eye. Immediately, she pulled the stretcher to an area where the mother can see the nicu staff nurses trying to resuscitate her child. Before the mother was wheeled to the ward the unlikely dr staff nurse bought some food for the mother and secured a warm blanket and beddings for her. She held the woman's hand and lovingly said, "have some rest now, for the meantime, we'll take care of the baby for you". I never expected I will hear those words from the unlikely dr nurse whom I really hate a lot. But I heard it with my two ears. I never thought I will see an angel in that staff nurse, but I just did. For a moment, I stopped myself and meditate. One can never see a perfect nurse. With all the demands placed in our shoulders, sometimes, we don't always meet everyone's expectations of what a nurse should be. In fact, we are always misunderstood by our patients and their folks. But we should never forget the reason why nurses exist... Right now I'm already a registered nurse, trying to find my place in the vast world of nursing. My work in the pacu right now demands so much from me. There are times that I feel that I'm not a good nurse, but I'm really trying hard to be the best that I could. I just hope that as I work with my colleagues and student nurses, they will see an angel in me. Even though we lack wings, our hands that work dutifully for the good of our patients, our lips that utter good words and encouragements and our hearts that swells with love and concern for our fellowmen, - they are enough evidence that angels exist in the form of nurses.