Angel at work, monster at home....help!
- 5Aug 2, '11 by Florence NightinFAILI always believed that I had a short temper...but lately I'm discovering some things that I really don't like about myself and I'm trying to find ways to change.
At work I'm crazy busy, running around on my feet for the whole shift, stressed out, overwhelmed, have some needy pts on the bell every few minutes, rude co-workers etc. yet I maintain my professionalism, keep calm, have a nice attitude even when answering my annoying pt's 100th call to get her an item 3 inches away.
I smile at my coworkers, say please and thank you etc. etc.
Yet the minute I enter my house my whole demeanor changes. I become exhausted, frustrated, easily angered, snappy etc. I lose my temper with the ones I claim that I love (family) when I know prefectly well how I control that same temper with friends & at work.
I feel bad
- 0Aug 2, '11 by Katie5How very often, we take advantage of the ones we love- we are polite with co-workers because we know we would be labeled a bad name or that the co-worker would give back as much dirt as he or she gets.
But it's good if you feel bad, it means you're unhappy with the way things are-you can possibly try to cultivate this restraint as an everyday habit. It's only pretense if you do it for a reason.
- 2Aug 2, '11 by That Guy, BSN, RN, EMT-BWhat do you do to unwind? I know that once I come home my scrubs are off, I eat something, have a drink if the night REALLLLY sucked and maybe listen to some music, watch a show, play a game. Something, anything to disconnect from the epic crap storm that is work sometimes. I find after doing that, I can take on the world with a smile again.
- 6Aug 2, '11 by woohAntidepressants worked for me. Basically, getting through the workday (or when it really hit me was when I was working fulltime and going to school over fulltime) used up all my reserves. Nothing left for when I got home and didn't "have" to act like a sane, calm and responsible person.
- 7Aug 2, '11 by No Stars In My EyesI don't know that I can offer any advice in particular; mostly I am responding to commiserate. It seems that after working 8-12 hours focusing on, anticipating, trying to resolve everyone else's needs/problems, the very last thing I need is to have to pay attention to someone else. That sounds horribly cold, especially since one of the things in a relationship that is so important TO that relationship isbeing there for each other. But spending all that time directed OUTward drains my inner self. I think some of the other posters are correct in saying that you need to have something that is for YOU, that feeds YOU and also at the same time helps you "cool your jets". I'm just not real good at taking care of myself that way; seems like everything else comes first. I've resolved alot of bugaboos in my life but that's a honkin' big one for me!
- 3Aug 2, '11 by merleeBefore you enter your home, take a few moments to decompress. Some deep breaths, calming thoughts, allow your pent-up misery to release.
Also, seriously consider contacting your EAP for some counselling and advice. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Many of us are with you in this.
- 6Aug 2, '11 by chicookieI had the same problem. I had to force myself to change. I put on music I knew would make me happy on the ride home from work. If that didn't help, I would sit in the car for a few minutes before I walked in and just talk out whatever I thought was frustrating or made me angry. Or write it all out. By the time I got home I didn't want to settle on it and didn't lash out at anyone.
I also talked to my family. I let them know look after having people ask me to do stuff all day the last thing I want is for people to ask me questions so if I'm snappy forgive me. They understood and when I walked in without speaking to them they let me be for a while until I stepped out of my room in a better mood. After doing it for months its gotten better but I really have to work on it.
Leave work at work!
- 5Aug 2, '11 by tiredbeatupRNI used to do the same thing. Being at work takes every ounce of mental, emotional, intellectual, and physical juice out of us nurses. Throw some feelings of frustration, unappreciation, and "will I be written up?", and even abuse into that mixture and you have a recipe for burn out and depression. Seriously, this is something all nurses should recognize and take care of right away.
What works for me is a nice quiet walk in the woods. No cellphone, just me. Pay no attention to anything at all except the sights and sounds of the woods. Watch and listen to the birds (I find chickadees so darn cheerful all the time even on the coldest winter days! I can't help but adore them!), find a huge tree and appreciate its beauty and size. That tree might be several hundred years old. See if you can spot a whitetail deer before they spot you and run away from you. That's not easy to do.
And, yes, take time to smell all flowers you see! Literally!
For me, time to be totally away from any and all demands from others brings so much relief! It's the persistent hustle and bustle of groups of people that put my last nerve on edge. Sometimes the sound of a human voice makes me want to run and hide.
Find something that gets you away from the demands of others and enjoy!Last edit by tiredbeatupRN on Aug 2, '11 : Reason: typos! =o/