Adoption - page 3
After reading another post I saw someone write they only wanted to have their "own" child. I am NOT trying to jump on this person, but as an adoptee and a LD nurse it got me thinking. I have seen... Read More
0Jun 15, '04 by NiobiusSwanI am a mom and a birthmom. I won't go into the details of why I planned an adoption (it would take up too much space, lol), but in a nutshell, I knew it would give us all (my son, the baby, and myself) a better shot at happy lives, as well as hopefully bless a couple who couldn't have kids. I went into it steeling myself for lifelong heartache, but it has been one of the biggest blessings of my life. In fact, it changed my whole life.
I truly believe that I was meant to get pregnant and plan an adoption. There were things that happened throughout the experience, and still today, that convinced me it was part of a divine plan - uncanny things that no one would believe unless they were there to see it. Not only did the adoption convince me of the presence of God, but it gave me an absolutely new start in life...I met people that are still in my life - mentors, friends, and, of course, the family that adopted him... We had an open adoption. I still talk to them frequently, they send pictures, we write...they have invited me to see them many times but so far I've chickened out...but it has been a breathtaking experience. Definitely painful, but beautiful. There were times when I was pregnant that I didn't know if I was going to be able to handle it (which is why I didn't even talk to the couple until I was sure), but God really brought me through it. We had a ceremony called "From Loving Arms to Loving Arms." We prayed and hugged and cried and it still gives me chills to this day. That's not to say it didn't rip my heart out, because it did, but the pain fades...what doesn't fade is knowing how loved and well cared for he is...and knowing that my older son is better cared for as a result of the adoption. This couple has actually offered to let us stay with them while I finish school...they have been my salvation many times...God works in mysterious ways. I never would have expected such love and generosity when I was planning the adoption. I'm rambling, but I guess what I'm saying is that I believe this boy was always their son. They couldn't concieve, and I could...I couldn't care for him in the way he deserved, and they could...so looking back, I know that pregnancy wasn't a "mistake," but a miracle - a way of giving them their child, and giving me a new start.
Another interesting aspect, this is a white couple, and they have one adopted AA boy and the boy I gave birth to, who is biracial. They are the most beautiful family I've met. They are as "real" as any family I've ever met, and the love is virtually palpable. It's obvious just from looking at them that they don't have a biological connection...but what is biology compared to love? As a mother of a boy who's father is worthless and contributes nothing to his life...except for sperm...which has legally entitled him to visitation that ended up in abuse...I am a firm believer that what matters is who is there, in the trenches, feeding and changing diapers at 3 am, sitting up until midnight nursing a sick child, searching for daycare, making dr appointments, going to the park, reading stories after working a 10 hour day....THAT IS WHAT MATTERS. Any animal can give birth (I don't mean that to be offensive!), but it takes an amazing person to be a parent (I'm not discounting the desire to have a biological child, merely saying that biology doesn't make someone a parent, love does).
I don't know if there is a point I'm trying to make, just wanted to give one birthmom's perspective. I'm a lucky birthmom, though, I'm sure that it doesn't go so wonderfully for everyone. The fact that it was my choice made a huge difference. If it had been 30 years ago and I'd been forced into it, wow...I doubt I would have made it.
This couple was unable to conceive, and though they could definitely afford it, they decided to forego in vitro...because as they said, "There are already kids here who need us." I have the utmost respect for that, because I don't know if I would be selfless enough to make such a choice. The desire to carry a baby and give birth and see a physical reflection of yourself can be so strong...almost irresistible. It must be a difficult choice to make, to consciously decide not to pursue that...but I am so grateful for their choice, because they are the best parents anyone could ask for, and my "birthbaby" so desperately needed them.
As other posters said, sometimes adoption isn't a viable financial choice (that is a tragedy, I wish the system could be changed in that regard)...there are many issues that make it unfeasible both for prospective birth parents and adoptive parents. I really believe that God can work miracles in so many ways...adoption, in vitro...we can't make any blanket judgements about the issues because there are so many gray areas and extenuating circumstances in each case. But I do think adoption is beautiful, and if I am ever lucky enough to be in a situation where I have a stable 2 parent family and am financially sound, I would love to give a child a better life.
Alright, I'm done babbling!
0Jun 15, '04 by missmercyQuote from fergus51TOTALLY AGREE!!! I have not met my "birth mom, but would not be adverse to having the opportunity to thank her!! She gave me a life that would have been totally out of reach for me if she had not gone ahead and made the tough decision to let me have better life than she had!! ( She was 15, scared and who knows what her life /my life/our lives would have been like)It's not the idea that some people would only want biological children that surprises me. I couldn't count the number of times people have told me my family isn't real. I know that those who haven't been involved in adoption or those who had bad experiences may not be able to see the good in it.
What I don't get is the idea that the birth mother should keep her babies even when she isn't the best to take care of them. I don't understand the stigma associated with giving your child a better life than you can provide when you are young, unmarried, drug addicted, unemployed, etc. Why is keeping a child you can't take care of better than giving him/her a good home?
I love my family. They are real. I do know my "real" mom (birth mom). I love her too. I am not bitter, and I don't have any "issues" related to being adopted.
As for foreign adoptions: loe the idea too -- but don't just assume that if you adopt a baby from China, Thiland, Russia.... that the birth mom will NEVER show up and want to have a part of your child's life. America is the "land of opportunity, the melting pot" and people immigrate here all the time. A dear friend has a Chilean baby -- who's "mom" has moved into their small town to be near "her son"... how'd she find him? Is he really hers? Who knows -- but point still stands: while foreign adoptions are more likely to remain uncompromised or exposed -- they are certainly not exempt.