OMG!!!! Yesterday was my first clinical day of CNA training in a LTC facility. It went really well because I helped pass lunch trays and feed a few patients. BUT TODAY?!?! I had to shadow an experienced CNA in the morning. She was very very good at what she was doing. I felt like a total clutz. She was gettin those patients up, bathed and dressed and I was watching her every move thinking to myself, this ain't for me, I can't do this everyday. I had to watch her empty and reapply a colostomy bag(sp?) Then there was this frail old lady who refused to eat for two days and was severely dehydrated. The CNA noticed she wasn't her same feisty self and alerted the nurses that the lady was a full code and rushed her to the hospital. I was thinking, how do they stay so organized and up on things?!? I am crying as I am writing this because I want to be a nurse (got accepted to nursing school which starts in Feb)but this training thing spooked the hell outa me. I'm scared crazy and top it all of, I have to go back tomorrow and get my own two patients. The ADON will be there with me to make sure things go right but still, I don't know if I'm cut out for this. Has anyone ever felt this way and got through it and if so, please give me some advice.