[ksrose1]

Hello all,
Not really wanting an answer or reply, but just sending this out to the bedpan gods.......I am an LVN who was bullied into returning to school by the hospital I am working for, now I'm wondering why I became a nurse at all. School is tougher this time around and I am not doing well. I wonder if I am smart enough to make it through.....any one else feel this way????

[pagandeva2000]

Originally Posted by ksrose1

Hello all,
Not really wanting an answer or reply, but just sending this out to the bedpan gods.......I am an LVN who was bullied into returning to school by the hospital I am working for, now I'm wondering why I became a nurse at all. School is tougher this time around and I am not doing well. I wonder if I am smart enough to make it through.....any one else feel this way????

I'm curious...how did they bully you? Are they phasing out LPNs at your facility? Also, are they paying your tuition? Did you really wish to return at this time or at all? I have not experienced this myself, but I have met some people who felt pressured to go back, not so much because their jobs pushed their backs against the wall, but, they were made to feel pressure by their peers and co-workers to return before they were ready...sort of like keeping up with the Joneses scholostically.

If your job security is not threatened, can find employment elsewhere or can back out of school for now, I would really consider doing it. There is NOTHING worse than being placed in a position where you are making a financial, physical and emotional commitment for something you don't currently desire. I wish you luck and keep us posted.

[MzMouse]

I am also curious why you are being forced to go back to school. Nursing school is hard enough for those who really want to be there. I can't imagine anyone, regardless of ability and intelligence, doing well if you truly don't want to go. Good luck.

[pagandeva2000]

The sheer thought of attending another nursing school makes me puke. I am glad that I did what I had to do to become an LPN, because that is the type of nursing I am interested in-a clear decision I made before I started school and has not changed since. I do remember, however, times throughout that program that I was very angry and felt confined, and also saw that no matter what the level of, B-S continues. Once I let people know not to even inquire about my intentionr or my individual life choices, I actually felt better. I wouldn't want to feel pressured to do something I already decided in my mind I don't want. It would be the same for me-a disaster, because my heart is not in it.

[love_being_an_aide]

When I first started working as an aide, my orientation leader told me I was wasting my time going to school to be a Medical Assistant. She told me I would be better off going to nursing school, and I believed her, and dropped out of the program. When I applied to my community college for nursing, I knew my heart wasn't in it, but I was feeling the pressure to go from all sides--the staff I worked with, people and friends in the program, and my family. I realized that I was not living my own life, but the life of others. And I finally stood my ground (in part due to the nervous breakdown I had three days before I was supposed to go to school). So I didn't go. And I have not regretted that decision. The one thing I learned is that you have to do what you want to do. Don't let anyone bully you into doing something you don't want to. If they don't like it, to bad. But don't make more stress in your life--stress is something that we have enough of. And now that i'm going to be going for my LPN, I have that same staff telling me what a waste it is, and I tell them to keep out of my personal life, i'm not doing it for them but for me. Hope this helps.

[pagandeva2000]

Originally Posted by love_being_an_aide

When I first started working as an aide, my orientation leader told me I was wasting my time going to school to be a Medical Assistant. She told me I would be better off going to nursing school, and I believed her, and dropped out of the program. When I applied to my community college for nursing, I knew my heart wasn't in it, but I was feeling the pressure to go from all sides--the staff I worked with, people and friends in the program, and my family. I realized that I was not living my own life, but the life of others. And I finally stood my ground (in part due to the nervous breakdown I had three days before I was supposed to go to school). So I didn't go. And I have not regretted that decision. The one thing I learned is that you have to do what you want to do. Don't let anyone bully you into doing something you don't want to. If they don't like it, to bad. But don't make more stress in your life--stress is something that we have enough of. And now that i'm going to be going for my LPN, I have that same staff telling me what a waste it is, and I tell them to keep out of my personal life, i'm not doing it for them but for me. Hope this helps.

I hear you! I worked as a CNA, Medical Assistant, Phlebotomist and Patient Tech. I always wanted to be a nurse, but over the years, when I saw the difference between the responsibilities of RNs and LPNs, I decided at least 10 years ago that LPN was the route for me. I didn't get the opportunity to actually go to school until my job offered a program that allowed a paid leave of absence and tuition to become either an LPN or RN. I applied for LPN. EVERYONE told me that I made the wrong decision; in fact, when I got accepted into the program and told someone at my job, she told me "Oh, you'll do better next time" and I told her off. I was needled and pestered, but, I stood my ground.

Funny enough, most of the people who applied to the RN program either didn't get accepted or didn't graduate. There were others that did graduate from the LPN program, and they decided to move on, many because of the comments being that LPN is a waste of time. The same thing is happening-some of them are not doing well. There are others that thought that "RNs don't do anything but give orders"...until they became one and saw that to be a good one, you work with everyone else.

I can't control what people think about LPNs, but I do not allow unsolicited advice-I didn't ask them what they felt. I told several people that their lives are not richer than mine because they became RNs, life becomes rich because of your attitude and what you put into it. I am happy with my overall life, with my family, friends, in addition to being a nurse. I can't waste time and money into something to please the crowd.

[ksrose1]

Thanks for all the replies, it's nice to know you are not in the boat alone sometimes.....and now for a few answers. The hospital I work for relocated me to this area (I love the ocean) and I signed a two year contract. This is where it gets ugly, one month after I started working they had a meeting for LVN's only and we were told that we would need to either go back to school and become RN's by 2009 or find jobs else where. If we were in a nursing program and not quite complete by then they would work with us, but we needed to be working on that goal. All those that had signed contracts would need to repay any bonus if did not comply and quit, because they were not making us quit. We could always work up to 2009 and then leave. They are helping with school up to $3000 a year, but I am asked to sign another 6 month extension so needless to say I'm doing it on my own. I have a year and a month left on my contract and you can bet when I complete school, I will work for another hospital. The only good thing is that our work schedules are worked around our school class. So that's the scoop.

[pagandeva2000]

Do you wish to become an RN at this time, or would you rather wait awhile? What usually happens with these contracts is that if they are paying for your education, and you leave, they want to be reimbursed on the amount already spent on your education, whether you completed the program or not. It may be different for your area, so, I could be wrong. You said you were not doing very well-what are your grades? Best of luck to you!