Jesus
ohbet,
First of all my heart goes out to you. I know where you are coming from.
nextly, perhaps it is time for you to rethink your current employment. Maybe this is a time for change. Perhaps your heart is yelling loud enough for your feet to take you to another place where you feel you are making a difference for those less fortunate.
If nothing else, I see this a a big stressor for you and you and I both know where that will get you.
Take this opportunity to evaluate what you have to offer vs how well it is being utilized.
I will be thinking of you as you weather this rough storm,
C