[lannisz]

Thanks everyone for your replies. I called off today and tomorrow (I've been sick for almost a week now). I think I need time to figure out what to do. I know the stress is making me sick. I also know I tend to be a perfectionist, I like routine and knowing what's coming. We never know what's going to walk in the door in this unit. I call it the OB ER! I feel comfortable with postpartum and also the post GYN surgery patients. If the labors and deliveries were routine I would be more comfortable with them too. But they never are. There's so much liability that we are documenting q 15 and everyone is high risk in some way or another. The ones who want a more natural birth and have no risk factors go to the other hospitals. I thought if I learned OB here, at this level, then I could easily transfer to a hospital without the high risk OB patients. I'm so close to being off orientation I feel like I need to complete it.

[Testalestai]

I know exactly how you feel. I tried to "stick it out" and lost my job that I've worked on for 25 years. My self esteen doesn't exist and I have no idea how to start finding a job-at 51 years old.