Originally Posted by CSNS
I feel so inadequate. They seem to be doing great and are eating and sleeping unlike me. I know I need to give it time but so far it has not improved one bit but rather got worse
Those of us who "seem to be doing great" are oftentimes stressing as bad as you are. We each handle it a bit differently internally and externally. I'm sure there are a few who have NO stress, but I haven't talked to a soul in my class who doesn't freak pretty regularly.
One thing that has helped me many times through the years with any new challenge is to realize that someone else has done XXX before me (whatever it is I'm contemplating -- decorating a room, sewing something, making a piece of furniture)....and I figure, if another regular human being has been able to do it, then surely I can. I may do parts of it better or worse than someone else did, but I can do it.
You're young still; take some deep breaths and know that you can do this -- you may not be perfect or do it the way you want to do it yet, but you have many years to hone your skills. Just like all the experienced RNs you have and will be working with. They weren't born looking so skilled; ask them, I bet they'll be willing to share how far they've come!!
Good luck!!