[me-too]

I have PTSD for years and have given up trying to find a therapist.

Generally, I get by trying to live as if I don't have the disorder.
Mostly, I am successful by ignoring it. I feel PTSD has already taken too much from me.

The other day however, I must have been triggered. (And, I am always surprised when it happens!! Every time feels like the first time I have ever been triggered!! I don't know what that's about.) Normally, when I am triggered I want to isolate myself and stay in the house. But, the odd thing about yesterday (after a stressful week of classes and career indecision) was that I had the uncontrollable desire to get in the car and run. (I felt as if my very life were being threatened.) This is so uncharacteristic of me to want to be out in the world during one of these attacks. And, my desire to do it was overwhelming. At the time, I was still in my nightgown but that didn't seem to matter. I managed to talk myself out of the desire to run because I didn't want to be driving a car while in that state of mind. Luckily my husband came home, otherwise I might have gotten in the car and kept driving over the state line...

It is embarrassing to admit but it is also scary too. Has anyone here ever felt similarly with a desire to run (don't remember reading anything about the desire to run before) and what do you do when you are triggered?

Thanks in advance,,

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by me-too

I have PTSD for years and have given up trying to find a therapist.

Generally, I get by trying to live as if I don't have the disorder.
Mostly, I am successful by ignoring it. I feel PTSD has already taken too much from me.

The other day however, I must have been triggered. ,

I've been going thru a lot w/ my father's illness and passing away recently - and I was doing really well for a while (it ws June 27 that he passed). I noticed this week tho that I am starting to feel that general anxiety/running away feeling. I'm not sure what exactly it is but I rely so heavily on God thru all this, don't know how I could do it without. But, I forget - til the pupae hits the fanny lol...

ps I also remember feeling that running-away feeling INTENSELY as a side effect of certain meds I was on - MUCH worse than what I am feeling now! I actually wanted to run through a window to make it stop! Needless to say I got myself hosp'd for that...

[sharona97]

Babs: I was on Seroquil for a short time, but gained so much weight. And the heavy sedation didn't sit well either. Put the sedation upon waking and the depressive mood during the day, I didn't like the feeling of not feeling!!! So I stopped. I've decided to stay with Zoloft. No more of anything else. I've increased my exercies and we adopted a new dog! Skippy is a 2 y/o male maltese. Our Sasha a female 6 y/o Westie wasn't so sure of the new addition. But with patience and long walks I feel more and more productive everyday.

I've never had the feeling to run during episodes or relapses. I head right for the bed and cover up......for days. I've noticed that durations are shorter and productivity is going up. Do I have setbacks? Oh Yeah. Any bad news can put me in a tailspin. But I try to methodically think things out and I am expressing more and more to my dh. His feedback is very postive and I'm feeling a sense of caring and underdstanding from him these days. Thank God.

Zoe, I loved that forgiveness site you posted. What a great internet site to visit. It is now in my favorites! Thanks!

Off to see Mark Knoephler in Downtown MPLS tonight! It's a date! Have a great weekend all.

Sharona