[sharona97]

sandygator,

"I am thinking how there seems to be an invisible wall which surrounds the bedside of a dying child...............dulled by boken hearts".

What a statement, you nailed it. I have near a millisecond in pediatric experience than what you graciously shared. I did see the addicted mothers, the abusive outcomes tatooed on these kids. I was feeding a child a bottle while the father was sititng in the room with me as the social worker was telling the father the child was going to be placed, I started shaking and doing everything I could holding it together. And that's only one incidence.

I have made a sign and placed it on my frig with your quote. I feel that all people need to focus on their accountability, clearly in abuse. Huge problem, I can't fix it, but I can pray for it.

And you my dear are an angel in my eyes. You have given service for the freedom ( of love, or safety, etc.) of others, of children, and quite possibly the parent(s) of these children.

You are in my prayers and thank you for your compassion towards these kids, what seems before your own well-being.

I also agree this story needs to be told in the article forum.

Take Care,
Sharona

[sharona97]

DeeDawntee,

So well said.

Sharona

[nurseby07]

I know I am not alone here, but it is pretty sad to go to a website for support.
I got a new job! My dream job! Then today my husband of 2 years left me, it seems that the ptsd that I and my children experience is too much for him..Although he does love me. I am sinking to that same old hyper-ventilating baloney that I so proudly put behind me. Yep, there are triggers and this is a major one. I am not suicidal, just unbelievably sad and alone. I had to quit my so great marriage and job on the same day. I think it will all work out. Thank you everyone for your support.

[Franemtnurse]

Originally Posted by nurseby07

I know I am not alone here, but it is pretty sad to go to a website for support.
I got a new job! My dream job! Then today my husband of 2 years left me, it seems that the ptsd that I and my children experience is too much for him..Although he does love me. I am sinking to that same old hyper-ventilating baloney that I so proudly put behind me. Yep, there are triggers and this is a major one. I am not suicidal, just unbelievably sad and alone. I had to quit my so great marriage and job on the same day. I think it will all work out. Thank you everyone for your support.

Oh sweetie, my heart goes out to you. Have you been in counseling in the past? May I recommend you try it once again. I will keep you in my prayers. May God be with you.

[BrokenRNheart]

Originally Posted by strugglingnurse

Im a long time reader who decided to finally post. This site is a major support for me!!

I was wondering, are there any nurses out there that struggle with ptsd due to child abuse??? If so, how does that impact your work, and how do you manage your symptoms???? Have you ever told anyone at work?? Any support groups you know of???

I really would appreciate your feedback here!!!


Thanks.

My PTSD is not from child abuse but from nursing. I am serious too.

I have no clue what to do. Therapy causes me more stress due to finding time and money. They are never right up the street and road time can add another hour or two to the day. I have tried counseling and didn't feel it helped.

Prayers are with you. Nursing is hard enough.

[sharona97]

Originally Posted by nurseby07

I know I am not alone here, but it is pretty sad to go to a website for support.
I got a new job! My dream job! Then today my husband of 2 years left me, it seems that the ptsd that I and my children experience is too much for him..Although he does love me. I am sinking to that same old hyper-ventilating baloney that I so proudly put behind me. Yep, there are triggers and this is a major one. I am not suicidal, just unbelievably sad and alone. I had to quit my so great marriage and job on the same day. I think it will all work out. Thank you everyone for your support.

Nurseby07,

I hear you loud and clear. Distater strikes alot of us, and so unexpectedly. I will keep you in my prayers. Keep watching for the next door to open.

[sandygator]

Originally Posted by BrokenRNheart

My PTSD is not from child abuse but from nursing. I am serious too.

I have no clue what to do. Therapy causes me more stress due to finding time and money. They are never right up the street and road time can add another hour or two to the day. I have tried counseling and didn't feel it helped.

Dear RN, I am struggling now with so many effects from my not working...money, guilt..mainly. I started out with a counselor thru work (EAP) but did not find her helpful, then went to a Psychiatrist who only wanted to give me pills, with no counseling...not the help I sought. I am afraid of where my depression would take me so I am trying again to find counseling that I would benefit from. Not all styles or personality are fitted to everyone. Keep trying! e-mail me if you would like to talk, commiserate, whatever. God bless you,
Sandy

[strugglingnurse]

Thank you everyone for your replies and interest in my thread. HUGS to e/o that has or is going through difficult times.

I started treatment but am again in danger of dropping out. I cant handle the intensity of the feelings, the flooding of memories and all that deep deep pain.

Just wanted to ask you guys- does anyone know- what is emotional pain???? I can describe physical pain well- starts with pain receptors, pain gate...... But what is emotional pain? Are there pain receptors somewhere that I dont know of??? Is it just all in my head???

I know this souinds silly, but is there any explanation that anyone can offer??? Thanks for reading.

strugglingnurse

[moochsmom]

There are numerous places to go for help with PTSD. The first place to call is any mental health group. Tell them you need to find a group. The most important thing is see a professional (if you have not done so). I work with PTSD returning veterans and it is so important to have professionals monitor you. I hope this helps. You are not alone, there are so many who have had the same abuse that you have suffered, so please keep your head up and remember there is hope.

[earle58]

Originally Posted by strugglingnurse

I started treatment but am again in danger of dropping out. I cant handle the intensity of the feelings, the flooding of memories and all that deep deep pain.

Just wanted to ask you guys- does anyone know- what is emotional pain???? I can describe physical pain well- starts with pain receptors, pain gate...... But what is emotional pain? Are there pain receptors somewhere that I dont know of??? Is it just all in my head???

strugglingnurse

your emotional pain is the motivating force that makes you want to drop out of treatment.
you know, the intensity of the feelings...
how you feel when flooded w/memories.
that my friend, is emotional pain.
after 3 yrs, i couldn't handle therapy anymore.
i've realized that i don't need to process any more pain in order to heal.
i just need how to manage the enormity of what happened.

if you want to understand the neurobiological sequelae of trauma, i suggest you read some of dr. bruce d. perry's articles.
it has given me a lot of insight w/o having to deal w/the emotional part.

blessings to you, today and always.

leslie