Feb 07, 2008 12:10 PM - Thank you so mch for your moving article. My husband is in the next room dying right now. I don't know if it will be today, next week or next month, but he has metastatic cancer that has invaded his brain. He has completed radiation and is in the midst of chemotherapy. He had a pulmonary embolus this week end, and is now on Lovenox BID.
He became more confused last night and I increased his decadron. He is somewhat better this morning, but can not convey his thoughts. He is not in pain, he can still walk to the bathroom, but he is sleeping more and more. I do not want to go back to the hospital, I do not want streams of people through our home. I want him to be comfortable in his own bed with his dogs and me here to love him until the end.
I pray that I am able to do this, and with all the mental energy and physical strengh I have, I will do my best. He is the best man I have every known, a kind and wonderful protector, and he has made me laugh every day since I met him. I know life goes on, but I have a hard time envisioning that right now.
Thank you all who help the sick, the injured and those who cannot help themselves. We as nurses see people as no one else can, and we have a duty to be there. Yes, it is hard, downright backbreaking, heart breaking work sometimes, but who else is going to do it?
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