Hey CarboneF11,
What an honest and courageous post! I have been an ICU nurse for almost 2 years now and the first year or so was very nerve-wracking for me. What I did to help myself was to study for and receive my CCRN certification. It was an invaluable process for me because not only did it solidify my knowledge, but it also really helped my confidence and sense of competence. I would HIGHLY recommend it. It would be great on your path to CRNA school as well.
What I have learned about ICU nursing is that it is really a very specialized and narrow set of skills. Once I began seeing it as such it helped me feel less overwhelmed. Yes, your patients can be sick, but you are really never alone. It really helped me as well to really take note of all the resources available to me. All of that helped ease my fears.
It may be true that you really don't like ICU nursing. However, I don't think you can really decide after only 6 months...especially as a new grad. Check out the sticky thread under Cardiac ICU nursing on the CCRN and see what you think...I promise it will help!!
Good luck! Let us know what you decide.

