[sharona97]

Thanks HCT,


PTSD triggered, and I 'm not used to triggers or what they are capable of. I know now!

When you are hurting, everything hurts, every word, thought, accusation, disagreement, humility, and even things I'd normally throw over my shoulder are taken like a shot to the heart. Whether the hurtful feeling I felt was intentional or not. It was a very personal attack that I felt. But I'm not saying they were personal attacks, ya know?

Gentle humor feels like an attack. All in the name of I am feeling hurt and not handling it. But am I supposed to keep composed (re: PTSD)?

Time will heal the hurt. Understanding someone's composure takes compassion. Forgiveness is hard to understand.

I certainly believe in divine intervention and know that what is meant to be will be.

Thanks for your kind words......a hug back at ya

((((((((Sharona)))))))

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

A simple task becomes a gigantic fear, of what?

I can relate, haven't had those days in quite a while but BOY OH BOY I could hardly leave my house even to do things I really wanted to do sometimes!

Kudos to you for wanting to serve - just keep trying! You are not beaten, just a little bent (ok, thinking of the image of the tree bending in the wind but it came out wrong lol)

Originally Posted by sharona97

Whether the hurtful feeling I felt was intentional or not. It was a very personal attack that I felt. But I'm not saying they were personal attacks, ya know?

I totally understand (((((((((( Sharona ))))))) xoxox

[sharona97]

Thanks Zoe,

We are all human and vulnerable, whether ii is good for the soul or not.

Too me a bent tree can be mended by support to it's trunk..........hmmmmmm

Still thinking of all the folks at the interested in prayer thread. Please let them know.


Thanks,



((((Sharona)))))

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

Thanks Zoe,

We are all human and vulnerable, whether ii is good for the soul or not.

Too me a bent tree can be mended by support to it's trunk..........hmmmmmm

Still thinking of all the folks at the interested in prayer thread. Please let them know.


Thanks,



((((Sharona)))))

That's right! Strong

I posted in the thread for you!

[sharona97]

90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper is an excellent read. I could really relate to the huge interval of feelings between hope to hopelessness.

So frusrating when you can't do the job you've done for so long, and he talks about his emotions concerning this. Almost identical to what I have gone through and felt from the illness to how I react to different issues today.
Just thought I'd share that, Happy Easter!

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper is an excellent read. I could really relate to the huge interval of feelings between hope to hopelessness.

So frusrating when you can't do the job you've done for so long, and he talks about his emotions concerning this. Almost identical to what I have gone through and felt from the illness to how I react to different issues today.
Just thought I'd share that, Happy Easter!

Hi Darlin! Happy happy Joy Joy!

Nice to see you - I was just browsing around in the disabilities forum last nite wondering where everybody was...

xo

[sharona97]

Originally Posted by zoeboboey

Hi Darlin! Happy happy Joy Joy!

Nice to see you - I was just browsing around in the disabilities forum last nite wondering where everybody was...

xo

Hi Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeey!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still reading posts, but better than that is hearing from you. How are you doing?


Please give my HAPPY EASTER greeting to the prayer thread friends. I miss ya' all!

Sharona:

[sharona97]

533 thank you's to 425 hmmmmm,

Hope still counts! Happy Easter All.

[sharona97]

Originally Posted by sharona97

533 thank you's to 425 hmmmmm,

Hope still counts! Happy Easter All.

What a dyslexic post. I was trying to write two passages for the New Season in Christ right around the corner, I apologize that I made an inarticulate statement and one that makes no sense. The comment intended was Thanks be to Christ.

Sharona

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

Hi Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeey!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still reading posts, but better than that is hearing from you. How are you doing?


Please give my HAPPY EASTER greeting to the prayer thread friends. I miss ya' all!

Sharona:

Hi honey, off and on struggling w/ depression - not HORRID depression but enough so i don't really want to get out of bed and be sociable and stuff - so it is WORK - sigh...

Just got over this little bit of flu too and that made it even harder. I still have residual pain in my upper arms (stinging and aching!), shoulders, neck... weak ... ugh. Would rather stay home than be working but I KNOW working is better for me.

I did get my permanent and total disability on my student loans. That is a mixed blessing - I am happy that $21,000 in debt is now off my shoulders - but to see in print that I am truly disabled (more so than what social security requires...) it kinda feels strange. Sad.