[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

Totally Awesome HCT,

Just when you think I can't ,it won't,can I, something good appears in our sights. I'm so happy that something good has come along for you and I wish you well in your future endeavors! I hope you will be happy in your new job!!!!!

{{{{{{{{Sharona}}}}} Just stopping by, no I didn't reply to this thread after all! Anyway - I am thinking of looking into (home) hospice nursing. But then I had a bad day at my job (which is one down from asst mgr at the store where I have worked for a little over a year (I got the promotion in August).

For those who don't know, I got this job after not being able to work as a nurse or even at all for 3 yrs due to depression/bipolar. I had intermittently been unable to work before, but never for that length of time, and I did end up applying for and getting disability!

Anyway - during the bad day - I was thinking, "that's what you get for thinking you are well enough to do nursing again, you can't even handle THIS!" "This" was a near anxiety attack after finding out that the manager had the safe keys on his person, in his car across town, while the two cashiers ran out of change. Long lines came to a screeeeeeeching halt! I became a blithering idiot lol ...

So anyway - Sharona you and others encourage me by my seeing your courage and strength - and also the Lord upholds me and tells me I am all right even if I DON'T work - but that through Him all things are possible (Philippians 4:13)

[sharona97]

HCT; Did you get the job of not? Hope so?

Zoe: I was talking to my BF yesterday about the same things, believe it or not. Became sick in 2000, kept trying to work(sick) till 2005, and haven't since then. Tomorrow is sign up for Spring semester (it will actually be in winter.......anyway)
I told her, I'm not sure I can do it. Still 2 more weeks on antibiotic and SOB even with short walks. Saturday dh took me to the mall to get my wedding ring fixed and a birthday lunch and I was done. Listened to John Mayer all the way home and really listened to Gravity song lyrics.

Gravity
trys to bring me down......
.......just follow the light, just follow the light.

So will do alot of praying and hoping that today will present a clearer picture of what's ahead. I'll just keep following that light. Thanks for the hugs!

[Sabby_NC]

Hold on to your Nursing Dreams Sharona, you have the determination to succeed. Remember nursing is so diverse that you can find areas that are not hands on. You will win this I am certain of.

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

I told her, I'm not sure I can do it. Still 2 more weeks on antibiotic and SOB even with short walks!

Don't you have a certain period of time when you can w/d from school without losing $ or receiving a failure? I ended up almost graduated (a different degree from nursing) but due to illness had to stop. The policy at school gave you a percentage of $ back, and no failure grade, after a certain period of time.

My point being, what if this was a one-day-at-a-time thing? And, is it possible to just take 1-2 classes at a time?

Jus' wunnerin' ...

{{{{{{{{{Sharona}}}}}]]

[sharona97]

Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

[zoeboboey]

Originally Posted by sharona97

Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

Very upside down smile here Sharona, I'm sorry

I do know that God has a plan for your life - and you are so precious - He is using you already. I'm kinda waiting for the next directional myself. {{{{{{{{{Sharona}}}}}}}}}

[herecomestrouble]

Sharona,I got the job,it's so great!Yesterday we fed about 45 people a free lunch,so heartwarming for many it was the only Thanksgiving they will have this year.My eyes filled up quite a few times during the lunch,one family Mom and three kids,the youngest just about a year,sat together and held hands while she blessed the table before eating.Makes me realize that as long as you have family you have everything.On Thanksgiving morning we will go in early(about 5AM)and pack meals for about 300 senior citizens who live alone and otherwise wouldn't get a meal.During normal(not Thanksgiving)weeks we do a smaller lunch on Monday and then on the other days go and do AIDS education in hospitals and rehabs.I still work every other weekend at the NH,can't give up nursing but I'm not strong enough to do it fulltime.

This was just sent to me,check it out it really speaks to me anyway,hope others like it as much as I do
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAe-24aSv9c

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone
Terry

[earle58]

Originally Posted by sharona97

Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

life sucks right now, because you're feeling weak in body and spirit.
do not make any decisions while feeling this way, sharona.
and i agree w/zoe, about taking 1-2 classes at a time.
anything more, and i think you'll be setting yourself up for more disappointment.
set goals that will inspire further hope and determination.
and finally, do not let anyone tell you, that you should quit.
perhaps, take it slower, but still move forward.
do not lose sight of your dreams.
continue to reach for the sky, one star at a time.
missing you, and wishing you peace, my friend.

leslie

[sharona97]

Where did it go?
As they say us baby boomers wil be taking care of our parents.
So that is where I am at at the moment, and struggling very hard.
It's so sad. I remember the good memories and don't think about the bad ones.

Right now, hope is getting through the hour and it hurts and you become vulnerable.
Vulnerable to critism, a disagrrement, a place you can't understand.

I was to do some parish nursing BP's last Saturday after mass, and could not do it.
A simple task becomes a gigantic fear, of what?

Hope will never leave my heart. It brings me back to who I truly am.
If anything, I've learned time heals and hope awaits.

[herecomestrouble]

Oh Sharona,I'm so sorry that you are going through this,I hope and pray that things will get better for you soon.Wish I was there to give you a hug and a nice warm cup of tea anyway here's a cyber hug for you {{{{hug}}}}
Terry