Hi all...I am hanging in there. My hubby moved me cross country the end of January...I was unable to see my psychiatrist before we moved, which has prolonged my wait in getting help and progressing. I am going day by day, have simplified my life back to basics, and am trying to resist getting frustrated with the 'waits' in getting insured, getting into seeing someone to get appropriate help. Since I've moved, we have a new PPO to deal with. I'm sure everyone here can relate...LOL!I have an appt with a new PCP but now will likely have to wait months more for a psych referral.<sigh> .
It was overwhelming depression, mixed with anxiety and panic OJT, and recognizing I was not 'thinking' well that caused me to finally quit my nursing job; just take some time, decompress and move from there. That was December...so I haven't worked since then. I miss my colleagues but not the BS...I'm less stressed, but not near feeling healthy. I'm also feeling worthless and guilty for 'not being able to handle things'.
One thing has become clear: I was a perfectionistic, driven 'human doing' for too many years and my unresolved issues just plain 'ganged up' on me. I overdid and am paying the price. I'm having to regroup and start over.
My insurance will only cover 50% of my psych doc and meds...I will see a ARNP to control some costs. When I can get in. Waiting is hard. Prayers are appreciated.
On a more general note: doesn't everybody here want these threads to be sharing threads where all feel safe ? If so we need to be careful how we respond to new posters. They should all feel free to post here, not look at this as some kind of 'private club' only. JMHO.
That said anybody who wants to share more 1:1 feel free to PM me. I am at home just taking it one day at a time, trying to stay sane and safe while waiting for my doc appointments. I like to correspond.
Hugs to all here.
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