[sharona97]

I can't tell you how many times I've said I just want to feel normal. Like I did before I became ill.

Let's all keep up the good fight!

Hugs
Sheri

[jennifer_25_nurse]

Originally Posted by Glad2BAnurse

Hey yall,
I too suffer from depression-i have had it since i was young. I have been having panic attacks lately and have been put on Blood Pressure meds. I made an appt with a pshychiatrist for next week. I am embarrassed by this b.c i am a nurse and when i start the transition program they will do drug test and will know what meds i am taking. I am currently on 20 of Lexapro and 150 of Wellbutrin. Seems to help(or i can notice if i go a day or 2 without it- i feel mean and sad) I seriously hate this depression/anxiety issue. I would just like to feel happy like "normal" people do i guess. (sorry so long) Appreciate any replies!

Goodnesss gracious please don't worry about this. I've been an LVN working in the hospital setting for 10+ years and I'm not sure that I've met a nurse that doesn't take antidepressant...LOL. And this includes myself. But seriously I think it is part of our personality as nurses that we just put others before us. You will not be judged for this from an employer. If I were hiring I would take all the people that were controlling their psychological problems rather than covering them up. Good for you getting treatment and help! Now you can have empathy for a patient in the same situation. Good luck. Jennifer

[Glad2BAnurse]

Thanks Sheri & Jennifer. I had a horrible night at work last night! I felt like I was going to have a nervous breakdown with the 6 patients I had. I was so angry b/c i could not get caught up and I felt such anxiety!Constantly on the call lights, had to restart 4 of the 6 IV's. It was non stop & I finally got to sit down about 2:30 this morning-from 7pm last night. I feel mentally exhausted. Sorry to vent! Thanks for listening!

[sharona97]

Sorry to hear of your bad night. Just know around the corner there will be a good night for uou if not for one of your patients. We are all beining tested, if not by people then even oursekves.

Vent Away!!!

[Glad2BAnurse]

Thanks for the encouragement Sheri! I really appreciate it!

[sharona97]

Originally Posted by Glad2BAnurse

Thanks for the encouragement Sheri! I really appreciate it!

My Pleasure!!

[ellieper4]

Hi Everyone,

I also suffer from PDST, anxiety/depression, what a continous battle, I was in 3rd semester clinical with only 3 hrs left do in the clinical and the instructor whom I've had before in another clinical aand whom I know truely didn't like me started riding my ass and screaming at me in the alcove outside the patient's room because I was running late in hanging an IV antibiotic med, she wouldn't even listen to the fact that the patient just got back from cardiac testing so that's why it was late but still within the hour allotment well from there things just spiraled downward big time I completely screwed up everything that I could possibly do I just couldn't think clearly, well to make a long story short she failed me out of the program for unsafe practices, it's devasting because from where I'm from it's very hard to get into another nursing program since your given an unsafe from another one. This instructor even asked me if I had a problem with anxiety and if I was getting any help with it I told her that I did and that I was in counseling and to please taker that into consideration, her reply back to me was "it's not meant to be" meaning nursing. So here I sit so depressing, and embarrassing to be such a failure I just feel that I've let down everyone like my family and especially myself big time. Any suggestions out there?

[sharona97]

Did this nursing instructor put in writing why she deemed you purportedly unsafe? If not I'd get a letter if she refuses go up the chain of Deans of the school. Somrthing smells fishy here. You have rights concerning harrassment and she doesn't have to know your confidential medical history in the middle of the hall. Good Luck.

[nyapa]

Originally Posted by ellieper4

Hi Everyone,

This instructor even asked me if I had a problem with anxiety and if I was getting any help with it I told her that I did and that I was in counseling and to please taker that into consideration, her reply back to me was "it's not meant to be" meaning nursing.

Surely that is a form of discrimination? Are there laws in the US against it? If she specifically said that nursing was not meant to be because you had an anxiety condition then I agree with the previous poster and get her to put it in writing. And surely its a bit hard to be an unsafe practitioner when you have an instructor with you? That's what they are there for...

[nyapa]

Speaking of which, I'm sitting here feeling miserable and a little scared myself. I am in the third and last rotation of my graduate year. I have become super anxious and every day I have just wanted to run. The last day I was on, I cried all day. I have to go back in tomorrow and speak to the clinical instructor and the Clinical Nurse Manager of the ward. I'm absolutely terrified. I had an episode years ago where due to a number of incidences (as an EN - LPN in Oz), I developed clinical depression. I was on and off work for 7 months and at one stage couldn't even walk into the building. But I fought back. And now I'm in my RN graduate programme. But I feel like I'm going backwards. I have increased my sertraline dose by double with the permission of my doctor, but I really don't think it is going to help...