Originally Posted by OliveVinesRN
Hello, and thanks for bringing up this subject.
I believe I either have this or bipolar disease. Because, at work, when I work on the floor, I have a hard time getting started once I sit down and actually have time to chart and do things. I sometimes find my desk area all unorganized and messy and I just can't keep up with things, like my pen.
And I find myself writing little post-it notes or jotting things down on a piece of paper towel to remember what patient wanted what or when I gave a PRN med. And the kicker is, I often loose the note during the shift and I run back and forth into patients' rooms because I always leave something behind. And people laugh when i tell them that I write notes to keep up with all that's gone on during the shift. And I always leave last. I have been fussed at by my manager a few times for leaving too late, sometimes 2 hrs later. And everyone always tells me that I am too hyper and talk too much and tell me to calm down. I don't know what to do and I don't want to be on medication. But, it makes my job hard because I get overly stressed and uptight about everything.
Olive, this is like reading my life story. I am not on medication but seriously considering seeing someone to validate whether or not I have ADD/ADHD.
When I was younger I worked as a crew McD's and it was a disaster everything was too fast I cannot focus. I got in trouble for disorganizing/ misfiling stuff back when I assisted in an office, I constantly lose pens, id's, purses when I was younger.. but improved as a grew older. (IM 33). This is my pattern:
1. Get stressed 2. Mind goes 90m/s 3. Cannot start intimidating tasks or get very disorganized 4. Get rattled and glosses over important details 5. Gets really really frustrated and the cycle begins again.
Im usually too flightly/ spacey but can concentrate on people who are lecturing or giving a me a litany of their troubles or reciting their biography. It is the carrying out the task that troubles me. My wanting to be a nurse is mostly motivated by wanting to prove something to myself.. that Im not a loser not stupid and can actually achieve my dreams.
Im really hopeful for my future. I am now a mother and I want very badly to succeed despite of this history.
Good luck and more power to everyone.