I am so happy to see these words in print! There are so many of us who are disconnected (not of our own choosing) from our Native American roots. My great grandfather was full-blooded Cherokee. Can I prove this? Of course not. My great-grandfather's name was Sizemore. I wish so much that I could reconnect........I wish I could "meet" my relatives and learn of Native American ways.
I have a longing for the spiritual understanding of my ancestors. Even in the simple ways, I have the desire to have my feet on Mother Earth instead of the asphalt and concrete of my everyday life and to feel the wind on my face and connection with nature.
I wish I had known enough to understand a uniquely different spiritual "experience" I had when I was only 19. My mother was buried the day before my first child was born. For about 6 mos. after that, I felt a "presence" with me 24/7. "It" was in every room I entered in my home and was even in my car with me when I drove. I didn't understand it. I wasn't on any medication or drugs of any kind whatsoever. Because I didn't understand it, I was very upset and it was really stressing me mentally. I dared not go to a doctor, because he would've give me a diagnosis that would've haunted me for the rest of my life. That was over 30 years ago & I am happy to report that I am as "normal" as anyone else (what is "normal" anyway?)
As a nurse, I have been fascinated by the books by Lewis Mel-Madrona COYOTE HEALING, COYOTE MEDICINE, etc. I have always felt there was a part of "me" that was missing--that spiritual connection that my Native American ancestors so clearly embraced.