[live2help]

Congratulations Cash,
Your story really put tears into my eyes. You know, testimonies like yours is really what people like me needed to hear. I was and still is a christian but i wasn't a true believer or a true christian until NCLEX changed my life. I am a very sunday believer. I go to church every sundays, i read bible every day, and i pray (my usual prayers) every morning and night. But i know truly my NCLEX experience made me bow down on my knees and go closer to the living GOD. It is a long story:

I graduated last year, May 22, 07 and worked as a graduate nurse for few months until the hospital that i was working at required me to take the boards within six months of my graduation. So i went and took the boards on Oct, w/ 75 questions and found out that i failed. So, I called the hospital and reported on my failure status and left the job.

From that point on, i felt like i was a failure. In front of my parents, friends, community, and every one who i talk to. I avoided everything in my life. But decided to take the boards again in Dec. But, i felt like i was never ready to take it again and not only that, i didn't want to fail again.... so i postponed to Jan, 08. When Jan came, I still wasn't ready, so again, i postponded to February and took it at the end of Feb with 265 questions.

For the second time, i found out that i failed again. Then, i realized that i will never pass this exam. I don't know what to study anymore. The feeling of being a failure really troubled me. I was depressed for so many weeks/months. Felt like killing myself so many times and many times, i tried too, but i failed. Every time i try to hurt myself, someone inside me always kept pulling me away from harming myself.
I am a very emotional person and this test really made me even more and i kept telling myself that i wasn't good for anything except to eat and sleep.

But life truly changed after April, on a sunday, after hearing Joel Osteen preaching, I decided that GOD has greater plan for my life and his blessing will be poured in HIS due season and he said few things to touch my life. And then and there, i humbled my life and gave it to HIM. Ever since then, i decided to fast and spend some time in prayer (not usual prayer but a true, broken hearted prayer) everyday. I finally understood that, i am not living in this world because i wanted to, but because, GOD wanted me to.

Few weeks ago, it was like someone was talking inside me, Do you know it took you 2 NCLEX exams for you to knill down and submit to GOD. I thought to myself, wow. it is true. If i had passed the first time, I know i would have never come closer to GOD. Second time, It made me get little closer to him but it was enough for HIM. GOD WANTED ME COMPLETELY. Now, i am praying everyday, fasting every day and meditating on HIS words and spreading the gospel of GOD to others. Psalm 130:14 "I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvellous are thy works and that my soul knowth right well."

Not only that, I am not worried about the NCLEX anymore. This NCLEX changed my life. I realize that GOD is my creator. He controls everyone in this world. HE sees you and me and he sees our future b/c he plans it. He does everything according to HIS will. Some people may pass easily, and some not. But i believe that, GOD HAS GREATER PLANs FOR MY LIFE than just NCLEX-RN exam. So I submit my life to him Everyday. Let his will be done upon my life what ever it is. (if his plan for me is not to be a nurse but do his works, i guess i plan on doing that).

Two days ago, i was suppose to take the boards with my friends, but some how the direction of my life was changed and couldn't take the boards with them. They called me after the boards and told me how they both got 75 questions and truly, we all thought they passed the boards. Because they both studied so much and so hard. Today morning, they called and told me that they failed. It was very shocking. But I know my GOD will be with me whether i pass or fail next time when i take it (June). If i fail, I am not planning to kill myself, but i am still going to hold me faith and continue to wait on HIS time and live for HIM.

But i truly believe that one day "GOD will move the mountains for me" and all i need to do is "wait patiently and continue to have the faith GOD has built in my life."

In psalms 146:14 - 19 - The Lord upholdeth all that fall, and raiseth up all those that be bowed down. V.19 - He will fulfill the desire of them that fear him, he also will hear their cry and will save them."

I know, some people who are reading might not believe in GOD and might think, please, we don't need GOD to take an exam. But i realize one thing from coming into allnurses.com that, majority of those who passed or failed always kept their faith in GOD and those who passed, always thanked GOD first and they realized that there is a greater power behind in everything that we do in life and that is definetly LORD JESUS, WHO DIED ON THE CROSS FOR YOU AND ME."

MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU WHO TOOK THE EXAM AND PASSED AND WHO HASN'T TAKEN THE EXAM BUT PLANNING TO OR WHO HAS TAKEN THEN EXAM AND FAILED LIKE I DID ( i am keeping all of you in my prayers). DON'T LOOSE HOPE & MAY GOD SHOWER HIS BLESSINGS UPON YOU AND ME!!!

[22angie]

Congratulation to you and god is good all the time. Trust in him he won't put more on you than you can bare just trust him.

[kychaw]

CONGRATULATIONSSSSSS............YOU WERE STRONG!

[mcknis]

Congratulations again for completing the NCLEX! It takes much work, ut will be worth it, I am determined. Faith in God is truly an awesome thing and one that needs to be spread to others. Believe me, others do see it, whether they admit it or not. I have 26 days until graduation and will be studying hard core until I take my boards, but God willing, He will allow me to pass it the first time, no matter the amount of questions I get. God will never leave you, nor forsake you, just keep the faith and He will lead you! Congrats again, and good luck being a new RN!

[NICURN2B08]

Originally Posted by cash

Marvin Sapp said it best because I never would have made it without the Jesus. This is going to be a long post because I have a testimony. I graduated May 2007. I took the Kaplan review class with the online question and scheduled my exam for June. I had 75 questions and failed. I was shocked. Never failed anything before, I have a masters degree what could possibly be wrong. Ok was hurt but I got myself together and started studying again. Took the test again August had 75 questions again, surely I have passed this time. NOT Failed again. Ok at this point I was totally devasted. All my friends were calling me to give suppor and comfort. I know that God would not leave his child. Satan was truly working on my faith. I really wanted to just go out to the freeway and get hit head on. I was numb. I started reading all the encouraging words here and how others prevailed after failing. I got learningtxt from online course for 5wks along with Saunders and started to study all over again. Everyday I was doing question. Scheduled for my test again and had 265 questions and again FAILED. OMG what is going on. At this point I was praying and praying and praying. Lord do you hear my cry!!! Satan kept messing with my mind but I kept my faith (what I had left) in God. I knew he was trying to speak to me in a might way. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship with my fiancee and I knew I need to leave but could not muster up the strength. January took the test for the fourth time, confident I was going to pass this time. I failed again 265 questions. Ok now what!! Please give me the # to the mental institute. So I kept praying. All the while he kept telling me to give up taking the test and was not supportive at all. Never did he comfort me or give me encouraging words. So I fasted and prayed for God to please give me the strength to get out of this and encourage myself. Trust me just when you think the sun will not come out behind the clouds it will. I said I will not study again for this test. I felt like I had all the knowledge I need, so 2 wks before I took it on May 8 I did Kaplan q bank and that was it. I prayed everyday for God to show me what I need to study again so I would be ready and the spirit kept telling me to look over the endocrine system. That is what my test mostly consisted of. Just want everyone to know that God is good all the time and he may not come when you want him but he is an on time God. Keep the faith and encourage yourself when nobody will and you will make it. It took me 5 times to pass. I had 75 questions this time and today I found out I am an RN!!!!

WOW what a testimony you have God is good, all the time!!! Satan is a tricky little something, but if you keep the faith, listen to God and do things his way he will surely show his favor upon you.

I just recently graduated 5/3 from nursing school and I am awaiting to take the NCLEX. Prior to graduation, we had to take a HESI exit exam - we had to score > 850 with only 2 attempts. This was a very trying time for me and I was self-defeating myself before I even took the test. I studied harder than I had ever studied before and had so many people praying for me. On the test day, I was extremely anxious and nervous, but I kept reminding myself that these feelings were not of God and that he had my back!!!! I did take a bathroom break with feelings of despair, but I looked at myself in the mirror and said ''TRUST GOD". When I got back to the test, I had 160 questions on the test and at question 150 I had only about 8 minutes left with 10 questions to go. Ok, the pressure was definitely on at this point....before I hit the submit my heart was pounding and literally felt that it was in my throat...literally...and my hands were sweaty and and I was super jittery!!!! Praise be to GOD...I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I was ever unsure about God's power, love and grace, he surely showed his to me so profoundly.

Thank you for your testimony and may God continue to bless you and show his favor upon you!

God Bless

[tora2881]

Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. God is always on time and he will never fail you!

[zaylee]

[big hope]

Thank you, Cash for such an inspiring story. I just took the NCLEX-RN yesterday and I feel a failure. The computer shut off at 75 and I felt like I was guessing the entire time. I got about 26 SATAs--I'm so sure I got them all wrong. I feel so down. The only hope in my heart is JESUS. I know that if it is His will, nobody and nothing can stop it. Not even those difficult NCLEX questions.

I am keeping the faith. He is a faithful God and whatever He decides for me, I will try to accept it wholeheartedly.

[misserella8036]

Thank you for your inspiring story. I am just embarking on my nursing journey. I need to make sure that my realtionship with God doesn't waiver. Beyond studying and hard work I need my faith to get me through! God bless you all.

[big hope]

I NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT WITHOUT YOU, GOD.

I sat the NCLEX-RN on May 20. I was preparing for the exam for quite a time, but I was really uncertain whether I was really ready for this. I am not a local graduate, you see, so I was not used to how the NCLEX works. I asked for prayers from my family. I needed God's help. I asked Jesus to sit beside me during those two grueling hours. All the time, I was asking for His help and guidance.

At # 75, the computer shut off. I was really crushed because I felt I did poorly. I was hoping for more questions to pop out and get better at answering them. Honestly, I was so sure I failed. I stood up and saw that I was the first to finish. Everybody in the room was still busy answering the test. I felt myself panicking! Oh no! Was my performance so poor that the system gave up on me at 75 questions? I went home feeling so gloomy.

During the 49 hours of waiting, I was really feeling down. I was certain of my failure. I was just waiting for Pearsonvue to confirm it, so I can go on with my life. I was even searching the web for new books to use on my second attempt.

This morning, God showed me how little faith I had on Him. I clicked on my result---STATUS: pass! God is so GREAT! What was I thinking? I forgot I asked Jesus to sit beside me during the test and He did. He is a faithful God. He is faithful to us. May 20 was the day Jesus and I wrote the NCLEX.