Hi Anne -
I am so sorry that you are having the problems with your health that you describe. It can be very frustrating and difficult to "control" those matters.
My thoughts?
Focus on getting HEALTHY. I don't want to sound critical or discouraging - AND I will not even open the door to the "challenge" this, test out of the EMT/Paramedic debates - but the PROBLEM is this-
Right now, you are not in a spot to perform nursing skills due to the health issues you describe. And as much as I may admire your desire for "wanting" to do the pre-hospital type of work - I think it is very ILL advised.
I WILL admit that hospital environs can be stressful - but the field is stressful in WHOLE different way (and not better, less - just different)
I doubt that you can pass the physical that many agencies use to staff field units --- if you are having rhythm disturbances and uncontrolled hypertension.
Bottomline:
I think it is a bad idea.
I think it would put you at risk.
And the "thought" or reality of having to "code" my partner is one of my doomsday scenarios!
Time out.
Get great medical care. Focus on you - your health.
The future will be out there - when you are ready and
able.
Practice SAFE!
Get WELL soon!