I have been a nurse for going on 22yrs now, all of it hospital based and everything from M/S to ER and now soon to be ICU again. When I started out in school in 1982 and first did patient care it became my passion, I thought that once I got paid for it, then it would even better. That feeling has lasted throughout most of my career. But of late I can't say that remains to be true anymore. I have been a nurse in 4 different states and always as a staff nurse. Right now all nursing is to me is a paycheck because I've done this so long there is nothing else that will pay me what I make. This never comes through to my pt's because I am a professional and my pt's care is number one. I think it is time to go back to school to find something new that I want to do and feel passionate about. When my pt's are truly sick and in pain I do feel for them and try and make a difference for them, but I have seen so much abuse of the system and have had to be nice to so many people who were not worth my time or effort. Maybe ICU will help change this for me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. flaerman