My shortened version of mistakes --
I've been on orientation on a telemetry unit. I'm loving it.. and what makes it wonderful is how supportive the nursing staff has been towards me. I know that I've made a lot of mistakes, one in particular that I imagined would rile up my preceptor and send me home crying -- but, instead, she accepted that I'm new and that her and every other nurse on the floor had been in that position at one point or another.
I've been a nurse for less than a month. I have a lifetime of learning to do. I still don't know why some nurses "eat their young"... which, I've found out through many, is really true. I'm sorry to the nurses that have been eaten, maybe even digested, and spit back out again into some other unidentifiable form.. maybe even at this very moment. I feel for you. For the experienced nurses, I hope you never forget how it feels to be the new girl/guy in town. And that what you say really does matter and that there's somebody behind that air of nonchalance who doesn't look affected by your words. Because chances are, they are affected.. greatly.. either in a good way or a bad way.
I don't think teaching needs to be done by instilling fear.. by pushing and pushing. I know my opinion can't change this - but I know it can change the way how I treat another person - who will, in turn, perhaps remember our encounter, and pay it forward. No judgments. No pointing fingers. We're all in this together. Might as well make it the best we can for everybody else. By doing so, we make it that much better for ourselves.
Thanks for listening.
Sep 2, '06
hi dempather i just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story, i'm new as well and have been having a rough time. i'm also a couple weeks into a "internship" program which at the moment i'm not very thrilled with. my preceptor often just leaves me "hanging" and lots of nights i find myself "praying" that i've documented correctly and done everything correctly b/c honestly i don't feel like she has my back. i will be with a new preceptor in a couple of weeks and i'm praying things will be different. in any case, i'm sorry you had to go through that i totally felt for you in reading that and can understand the fear you've felt, it's a horrible place to be. but in reading these stories from other new grads it helps to see we are all just human, all going through the same struggles and all doing the best we can. i wish you all the best.
Last edit by NRSKarenRN on Sep 4, '06