I am a recent new grad. I graduated in May 2012 and landed a job at my dream hospital working in peds heme onc. I always knew I wanted to work in peds but never imagined I would be working in heme onc. I have been working since July and off orientation since mid October. When I am at work it is stressful at times but I am feeling more and more comfortable every day. I have had a few rough nights but I think that's true for everyone.
The issue I am having is that since I have come off orientation I have anxiety the few hours before I go to work and the night before I start a string of shifts. I have trouble sleeping before my first shift and if I wake up I start obsessing about work, thinking about what patients I will have and if I will be able to handle them and I can't go back to sleep. I get butterflys in my stomach and I get grouchy. Its like I can't take my mind off of worrying about work and enjoy my last night off or relax for a few hours before that first shift. Once I am at work and settled it gets much better and I usually do not have much anxiety going back the next night but that feeling of anxiety has started happening earlier and earlier on the day/night before. It seems to be worse when I have had 4 or 5 nights off in a row than if it has just been a few days. I thinks part of the problem is the constant switching back and forth from days to nights has not been easy for me but unfortunately it will be at least another year before a daytime position will open up for me. It is not to the point where I feel I need medication or anything.
Has anybody else dealt with this? Did it go away with time and experience? Any advice? Sorry for the long post I am just looking for advice on this issue. Thanks!