I am about to graduate in May--yeah!! My problem is this--I have been a Certified Surgical Tech at my hospital for a while. I really loved it there and was planning on working there when I graduated. I even bragged to my classmates what a great department it is to work in. I thought that I would be a shoe in for sure. I applied there in March-after I talked to the manager of the unit in December and she told me to apply- and hadn't heard anything. I kept calling to check on the status of my application, and was told that the manager had it and they would get back to me. They never did.. I called them again last week and was told that I would not be offered an interview. I was utterly shocked! I didn't see this coming at all! I called the manager because I wanted to know why-I mean, I have a right to know! I was told that because of my absences early in my career due to depression and pregnancy-that I would not be a good nurse for them. She told me that she "asked" what everyone else thought and they agreed. I have been working there once a month to keep my seniority and no one has ever said anything to me. They have even asked me where I want to work and I said "here". I bet they were laughing at me! I told her that I won a scholarship from that hospital and had a huge number of Drs. and nurses give me excellent recommendations--she said they were probably lying! I am an excellent tech and I thought I was a good person but she has made me second guess every compliment that I have ever had! To make matters worse, a friend of mine applied for the job--knowing how badly I wanted it-and took it. I am taking this very personally and am thinking of ending the friendship. She has absolutely no experience! I need advice on how to deal with this. I had an interview today at another hospital-45 min away- and I can't get excited about it. I am afraid that I will never be able to let this go.
Sorry this is so long!!