Messed up my first job, now what ?

rn-jane - I was doing step down actually when i first started. The acuity of the patients was super high and the only people who actually stayed >24 hrs were thoracotomies and the open hearts...i mean there were days where I would d/c my whole group and get another one before i could blink. I think that, that might have had something to do with it. I really need a floor where the turnover rate of patients isn't so fast..but it seems to me like that doesn't exist. I went to the hospital that I might be getting a job at and their M/S floors have a 1:7 ratio and that scares me ALOT. I went and I actually talked to the NM at the ER where I wanted to try and get a job at but New York requires a year of M/S before you can go to the ED...I was honest with her (and this was off the record I was actually working on the ambulance at the time) and I told her why I was terminated/resigned from my other job and she told me to be brutally honest with the woman with whom i might interview with and tell her exactly what happend. She laced into me pretty hard, and said it was bad practice when I told her what had happend and made me feel awful (As if i didnt feel like **** enough) but then she ended it by saying that if i needed anything to ask her and that she believes everyone deserves a second change, which was nice. I do have reservations about admitting my mistakes because I dont want to be blackballed and never be able to find a job but I know that the NM that I might interview with for this PCU floor will probably already know....Got any good advice ?


asxhusz - Damn that is a pretty tough situation to be in, and I'd be ****** that they said they would help you and then all of a sudden they let you sink like that. You know I hear/see it all the time that nurses don't eat their young but I really think they do, no matter how many people say different. I'm sorry things didn;t turn out well for you. I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors, and don't worry things will get better, I don't know if it's true but that's what I keep telling myself and I gotta believe in something ! Good luck !