Quote from zafariarms
I am stuggling also of my work, It is my fourth week of working alone next week after my 3 weeks orientation but I still not comfortable and hard to speed up. Some of my collegues reported bad things about me that I am incompetent nurse coz i always make mistakes. I always finish late and my documentation is not as good compared to them. I miss a lot of things and I always go home exhausted. I feel like Im so stressed, I kept on thinking of my work all the time even at home and I cant sleep straight away. Sometimes i feel like quitting my job but i dont have a choice and i dont like to give up. I need to keep going and carry on with this battle. I still have a good spirit overcoome this very challenging job that affect me, seems i got no life at all for thinking too much how to cope.
It's been a while since I posted this initially. Update: my job on ICU Stepdown (supposedly) is fantastic compared to the job I described here. I'm charging and feel comfortable and competent now. However, ratios are 8:1 on my floor and acuity is high. Some nights I feel drained and unsafe. But thinking back to the position I posted here makes me keep my head up. It taught me more than I ever imagined and made me grateful for my new facility.
Give yourself time. It'll start to click and you'll learn to leave work at work. Do your best and learn to prioritize. There are so many posts about new grad challenges because school really doesn't prepare you for work. You'll make it. Don't cut corners. Be competent even if it takes longer. If you aren't ready to be off of orientation tell your manager. Even if they say no, make sure they know. Good luck!