op: you probably hate your floor.. a lot of us hate our floors/specialties. i started off on one floor, cross trained on another (both i liked) and am now on a floor i hate so much i cannot think straight!!! i want to be an er/trauma nurse. i could not land the er out of school (they were not hiring) so i took a job that would give me similar experience... my organization re-organized and i was moved to a floor i hate.
i hate the nurses (most of them are poisonous angry bitter women-young and old) and i hate most of the patient population (gi, endocrine) because the related disease processes are so freak'n boring to me! sometimes i get neuros and renal and once in a blue moon i get a true cardiac problem.... however, this is not enough to sustain me.... i hate hate this floor!
i miss tele/step-down even though it was very stressful and hard work because i was constantly learning new information that was cardiac related. the nurses were team players and most did not try to eat the others (young or old). now i feel like i am in nursing school
doing my shifts (clinicals) one day at a time without enjoying a single second! similar to nursing school, i am trying to keep my head down so it does not get chopped off!
as a side note, i just want to say that those of you who are like me, counting down your days until you are no longer a new grad, do so with caution. i know a handful of new grads that hit their year mark and had a nervous breakdown (one in particular had to leave work during her shift). why? they are still trapped on their floors! more experienced nurses are being hired for the floors to which they had hoped to transfer after a year.
i know of one nurse who literally picked up and moved away after finally realizing that transferring into the ed or icu was not going to happen here (this is my plan as well, if the army does not work out...).
on a brighter note, i agree with the optimistic ones who say to see the opportunity on the floors you hate as a learning experience... like i said before, i have nothing new to learn in the area of my interest, but i can learn other skills and improve in other areas... this still does not change the fact that i hate this floor.... but it gets my mind off of the really bad shifts and bad days, which are many (like last night).