To make a long story short, I relocated to california from michigan in November. I got a job at what I thought would be a good fit for me, at a peds hospital, a Magnet facility at that, and now I am rethinking it all.
I worked in psych as a mental health worker (like a CNA, sort of), for 6 years, and thought I wanted something different. Well I have realized that I hate my job now and I desperately want to go back to psych. A couple problems, I got relocation money, and have to stay for 2 years, or pay it back, my fiance feels that I need to give them at least a year, but its so hard, I dread going to work, all the time. I don't want to be a quiter, but I just feel miserable all the time. I am anxious all the time, and now I am getting really depressed, to the point of not wanting to do anything fun, I just want to sleep and be sad..
I just don't know what to do. I want to quit and get another job, but I feel horrible. I don't want my fiance to get mad at me, but I just am anxious all the time. I know its my life any my health, but I do feel bad for leaving my job so soon, and having it reflect badly on me if I go look for another job.
Sorry for the rambling, i just wanted to get my thoughts out there... thanks for reading..