I can TOTALLY relate to what you are saying. I'm a new grad BSN and I'm almost off orientation on my stepdown floor. My hospital is large, county-run, teaching facility and we see practically everything. So our floors are quite busy.
My orientation has been quite overwhelming. I NEVER knew nursing could be THAT hard and maybe it's' because my unit is harder and more acute.
Anyhow, I have never cried so much in my life than during orientation. I would often cry BEFORE work and even after because I was so stressed out. I've always been emotional but I never really started crying till the end of nursing school
and now the real world of RN work. I suppose the stress has been too much for me lately and it's been hard not to break down at work even. Sometimes my anxiety would make me feel like I could vomit even (although I haven't thank God).. I quickly learned that I'm a bit of a perfectionist too and I get anxiety quite frequently.
To me, I found that I either have to decrease my anxiety and take care of my health more or change my nursing unit to something less crazy. I have to stop beating myself up for thinking that it would look like a "weak" move or a
"weak" response to stress. Each person is entirely unique and different and we have to do what's best for US. If we do that we can best serve and care for our patients. I've come to really learn this recently.
A good cry is fine but I think if you feel like you are too overwhelmed then you should seriously consider your circumstances and what you need to do to stabilize yourself.
Sometimes I have to just quickly walk into the bathroom or somewhere isolated at work to calm and recenter myself. Sometimes that helps. Other times I leave the unit entirely during my break and get some fresh air outside.
All I know is that it's absolutely crucial to take care of yourself so you can be more stabile at work and in general.
Gosh I so empathasize with you. I'm currently debating where I'm going with my nursing career. I JUST started so that makes it even more stressful. Anyhow, I will see how things go.... good luck and take care...