I am a new grad working on a fast paced floor for 3 months now. I do my best every shift but constantly feel overwhelmed and overworked. Last week I was having legitimate chest pain at home thinking about work.
The anxiety regarding not making a mistake and the heavy pt lifting has taken a large toll on my physical and mental health and I am seriously contemplating changing jobs even though it's only been 3 months. I am extremely conscientious about the investment this hospital has made in training me, however I cannot help others if I am not feeling well myself. Occasionally I have a "feel good" shift at work but the majority I feel mentally and physically stressed. My co-workers are sometimes helpful but are also busy with their own patient loads (the ratio is high on our floor) so they sometimes say they're sorry, they don't have time to help.
My ideal job would be something in nursing but without the direct patient care aspect because making a mistake and hurting someone is what keeps me up when I'm trying to sleep. I have heard the first year is the worst but I dont know if my experience is atypical. Is it horrible professionally to leave so soon or can I justify my health?
Any advice is appreciated. Thank you.