I have posted here before but I'm really wanting some advice or support right now and can't figure out who to turn to.
1st when I chose nursing as my major I was pretty sure I wanted to do something in women's health. Long story short my mother passed at the age of 35 with breast cancer and on top of that it was right before I hit puberty...needless to say I have this strong desire to give girls and women education about their bodies because I feel like I never was educated and my mother wasn't either. I know my start is in postpartum or labor and delivery areas before I can go anywhere else.
I finished nursing school and was 100% sure that I wanted to do women's health after I finished my ob rotation of clinicals. Well what I didn't know is that's despite my hard work and efforts I was not going start where I know I want to be. In school I did not like med-surg. I just never had an interest for it like I did the women's health areas. Well after I graduated in may 12 I was indeed on a med-surg floor. It was the only job I can get and I was pregnant so I was desperate.
I oriented on my floor from July up until I delivered in oct. Throughout my orientation I dreaded work. But I thought it was because I was pregnant and just exhausted. But since I have returned after a 2 month maternity leave I am miserable. I have cried on the floor after I have told myself that I would not allow that to happen. I have almost lost it in a patients room too. I dread going to work. I've been having frequent headaches and can't seem to get off of my mind how my new career is nothing that I visioned. I feel burned out already and I really haven't even been here that long! I thought it would take years.
My 6 months is up so I can transfer to another floor, but I can't help but want to be in my specialty of choice. Everything at the hospital I work at is "experience required" or "experience preferred". I have thought about going to the managers directly and telling them how much I want this and my experiences already, I just don't know how appropriate it is.
I've already talked with my manager about my feelings and I've even talked to experienced nurses. Everyone says its normal but when do you know it's not normal and it's not going to work out? I need advice on the next steps I should take. I love being a nurse, just not in the type of nursing I am in.