Hello fellow nurses,
I am a new nurse and I made a big mistake last night... my DNR CC patient who I have (probably had) an awesome rapport with her and her family.. had some labs that I just forgot to check.. well she had hgb of 6.1... 6.1!!! how could I miss this??
so the nurse who I gave report to (who is never nice to me but that is not the point) was of course bitter towards me and rightly so.. doctor of course was furious and rightly so.. 7 hours after the fact... and close to midnight we are getting units of blood and consents signed
I work on a floor of sharks... I can't speak to them about this... I of course began crying pretty much on the spot (I really hate working with women for this reason) .. why does it always feel like when you oversee something, you are all alone?
I am just putting this out there... I realize that most of the people who read this will be women and I hope you know what I mean when I made the women comment above..
I am working so hard to keep all my patient information together here.. I know that 4 patients for me is more than enough to manage... I am in AWE of the night shift who sometimes take on 6.. let alone a charge nurse who has a whole floor to contend with.. and I thought I was making progress but this whole situation is making me take a long hard look at the decision I made... yes we all make mistakes but this???
I am being super vulnerable .. I have been up all night, I am one raw nerve here
I do not want to go back for fear of all kinds of judgement.. legal, the family, co workers... all of it.
If you have read this far, thanks for letting me vent this... If you are judging me... don't blame you but know I can't get any lower than I feel right now.
What do I hope to gain by this? tell me I 'll get better with time .. tell me I am full of sh...and just give it up? I don't know.. just hurting here