I really never expected to be writing this, but having just made my decision, I am writing it out to help myself process it.
I finished LPN school in Canada in 2004 and worked one year before getting married in the US and deciding to stay at home with a new baby. A year later, knowing that I would not be returning to work imminently, took on EC's LPN-RN program (2007). I studied before my son woke, from 5am - 8 am everyday, and my husband was a great help in the evenings. It worked well, and actually got me through many trials of new motherhood.
Skip til now. April 2012. In the last 5 years, I have not "worked," our family has moved 8 times, we've had another (very difficult!!) baby, bought a fixer-upper house, and my husband has been working well out of state for the last 3 years. He is currently in Africa, and we hope he will return in the summer for a couple of weeks. My family is in Canada, my in-laws are an 8 hr drive away. We've made some great friends in our newest town, but I really have had no support. My hands are full. I have a 6 yo I'm homeschooling and a 3 yo who is now just starting to sleep through the night. I am doing all the house repairs myself. As soon as book an exam, something happens. Somebody gets sick, hurt, broken, etc. And it's postponed. And postponed.
Now, I have been educated a decade ago in another country. I'm finding it really difficult to keep up. At this point I'm no longer in touch.
At this point I have HALF of the program finished.
And I'm feeling like I failed. Like I said, Im processing it, just give me this humble little page. YES, it's an excellent program. Its a great option. I am very dedicated, driven, very good at learning on my own - I was home schooled a while as a child, and I finished HS at home as well. Enter life, enter kids. I just can't pull it ALL off on my own. My kids and their home had to always come first. It IS very difficult for me to process letting it all go.
So I'm going to take the 'easy' route, separate my home life and college a little more, find care for my kids and relax in a classroom, being spoon fed the stuff I've already learned half of, and could really really use a few clinical rotations to get back into it. Its taken me a long (tormented!) time to come to the decision, but the more I think about it, the more excited I am about it. Excited about a definite end date. AND! The labs, care plans, drug cards, clinicals.. it's all coming back.. it's stuff I am familiar with, and so entering a 2 year RN program? I feel like I will be a step ahead.
Talk about letting go and moving forward - aigh.
One step.. at .. a ... time...