This is my 3rd week of orientation in ICU. I'm actually supposed to be on PCU, but for some reason they orient you on ICU first.
Anyway, the first 2 weeks were good, but today was awful. My preceptor somehow ended up with 2 orientees, and I was responsible for 2 patients, and I had never had patients as acute as these before, and it was just a mess. =(
One was a new admission with a bipap and kept desatting down to the 70s and the other had a bowel movement 4 times today and was disoriented, lethargic, and uncooperative and over 200 lbs. =(
I just dont' know if I'm expected to handle this stuff by 3 weeks, or if I just kind of got dumped into a situation that should be way beyond my abilities. I didn't get to sit down until 2 o'clock and then I looked at my orders (which my preceptor never taught me how to do ugh, so I feel a bit lost when it comes to orders) and saw that there was stuff that needed to be done, that I hadn't done yet. All my meds were given an hour late. It was just awful, and I wanted to cry.
And I don't know if I'm just a baby and I should be doing all these things by myself by now.