So I was terminated a little over a week ago and well I have been haveing a lot of dreams about the LTC facility that I was terminated from. I dont really miss working there because it was awful I worked there for 8 months and it was pure misery. I stayed because I was getting paid 10.75 an hour, the staff I worked with were nice, and some of the residents I liked. and no I wasnt trying to get fired but I always told myself it wouldnt be the worst thing in the world if I did. And its been a relife getting terminated I no longer feel depressed because of the heavy work load that the other CNAs said was pure torture compared to other nursing homes and hospitals.
My dreams mostly consist of me being at the facility and Im taking care of one of my regulars and A) somthing goes bad or B) it all goes fine. or C) just somthing out of the ordinary happens. I dont think about this facility befroe I go to bed and I most definatly think about it when I get up from having one of those dreams. In many ways I have moved on. Im looking for another job I have applied for almost every CNA position I was qualafied for online and I have even applied for a house keeper and laundry aide position at my local hospital. I really want to get in to a factory right now and take a break from being an aide. So I have applied at a factory and a few minimum wage jobs too.
I myself feel that maybe if I get another job these dreams will become far and inbetween to not at all! Even when I worked there I had dreams about that place. Like when I worked my 3 days straight I had dreams between my shift then I had dreams on my first day off. dreams about some of the residents being noraml didnt have a thing wrong with them. like one who had ALS just got out of bed and started walking and dancing. But then on my last weekend working there (unknowingly of course) I had a dream about one of my residents dieing and then when I came in to work for my next shift I answered a call light on my way to give report and another resident not the one I dreamed about dieing told me he needed air put in or taken out of his cuff so that he could call his wife before he died and I was like holy beep if anyone dies tonight I swear to god Im never comming back its my last night for 4 nights and no one is dieing while Im here!
Then after I got terminated I had more death dreams mostly about my residents I used to take care of. Then there was one dream with me and two nurses I worked with. We were at a different facility working as newbies to this facility. and I got in to an elevator after having a humorous conversations about me cleaning the bed pans when I wasnt mad and how I did what ever I wanted when I wanted at this new facility that we worked at. I got in to the elevator and the doors wouldnt close I was thinking huh? this is wierd then the doors slammed shut and the elevator was shaking and the cable broke and the elevator went crashing to the ground and I died... so Im assuming.
I read on the internet that death dreams just symbolize an period of uncertanty in life... and boy am I there!!!