I need some advice. Here is my story to date...
I accepted a CNA position at a LTC facility. I had applied for a position in the related hospital because I know that I prefer acute care, but it is commonly known in this area that it is nearly impossible to get an entry level position as a CNA in that hospital.
I began orientation this past week. I enjoy the staff on my shift and especially the CNA that is training me. She is a career CNA and a wealth of information. Unfortunately, I am quickly realizing that I am definitely not calloused enough for LTC, just as I had suspected. It takes a person who enjoys geriatric care and all that it entails to flourish at a nursing home job. I knew going into this that I prefer the hospital, but I am a open-minded, fast-paced learner and care-giver, and I thought that I would do fine.
To clarify, I "get" the job. The tasks come easy to me, and I am quick to learn faces, names, schedules, and all that. I enjoy caring for people so much, and I take pride in my work. The issue I am having happens to be that I am fretting over my mental inability to be "forceful" (for absolute lack of a better word) in getting the residents up for the day against their will. (I am working the midnight shift). I am not talking just about people who don't want to wake up yet. I am referring to the residents who are cognitively impaired and are contractured and fight with all their might to remain in bed or struggle in general. It is seriously bothering me to have to do that. I know it has to be done. I also know that some people are cut out to do it (like my trainer). Unfortunately, I am not cut out for that aspect of the job (and only that), and I readily admit this.
I dread the thought of going back for my next shift. I took this part-time job to make some extra money during my last semester of LPN school (I have 8 weeks left) and to get some more care experience under my belt as I went straight into nursing school without working as a CNA.
I guess I would just like some input. I am thinking about quitting and I would like some opinions and /or moral support from my peers.
Thanks for listening!