I completed an 8-week CNA course at the end of August with relative ease. From a glance I got of my test scores before the lady took them away, I only missed two on my demonstration part and around 4 on the written.
I didn't fill out an application at the nursing home my class interned at, but I did put my name on a list of students who were "interested" in employment, and got a call at the beginning of October. I went down there and had the job. The staff development manager lady I was interviewed by didn't even look at my resume.
So it's been a month, and while I enjoy most parts of this work, I find myself really struggling to keep afloat. This is very emotionally distressing for me, because I am working nonstop my whole shift to get everything done and it just seems like I go nowhere or maybe I finish everything just in time to leave. The other CNAs on the floor are mostly helpful, but the attitude/work atmosphere/"mood" on the floor is not really that encouraging. The politics of it really stresses me out when I trust that the other girls are doing their job even when they have 4 call lights on (in a 4-room/8-patient run) but yet if I have one or two on and am too busy to get to them right away, one of them will find me and lecture me even while I am giving someone else care, or worse, chastise me in front of visitors.
I am trying my hardest but it does not seem to meet par for this place. I don't sit and talk with the residents. I do my work as best and as efficiently as I know how. I am experiencing more and more stress related to this, to the point where I have considered quitting instead of letting somebody report me and strip me of my license. I know of one report that has already been filed for sure and I am not keen on the idea of being convicted of negligence because I cannot keep up with the workload.
Any advice? Stick with it, find another location, etc etc?
For reference, this is one of the best nursing homes in my state, I am told that I am lucky to work there, that it won't get better anywhere else, so on...the starting pay is pretty well above normal for this kind of work, and the schedule of work is "4 days on, 2 days off" unless we are very very short.
Would appreciate some rational advice! I can't bring myself to a logical decision that is not swayed by emotion right now. I am really stressed out and biting my nails over this.