I have been an RN for a little over a year now, working in a CTICU. I have already been accepted into a CRNA program to start in 2 years, and with that news comes that point where I am thinking about this career path even harder.
When something goes wrong with my patient, I feel like I have that moment of "oh sh#t" in my head, immediately feel my HR and BP soar, and if it's real bad, my hands get a bit shaky. I am able to take the actions I need to, but I am worried about this response to a crisis. I have read mixed thoughts in the threads here, that it takes time to adjust, and to some extent, this reaction may never completely go away. Others say it is a sign that you will be highly uncomfortable in an anesthesia environment. I have shadowed, but it is tough to place yourself in the provider's exact shoes and truly feel as you may feel if that was you. Looking for advice from those who may have gone through these feelings or know those who did... or who just know their career well - is this normal? Will I adjust, or should I be re-considering this path. Thank you!!!!